#parker talks

[myownrighthandgirl]

If eva stratt could fuck a baby into me I’d let her

[talking-tics]

I think people underestimate how majorly pissed off my tics make me sometimes. like. there's only so many times in a row I can jerk my head to the side before I want to bash it into a wall

[parkakeet]

there's something deeply and uniquely hurtful about the cycle of abuse in cults I think. specifically in the type of cults that are generational like mine is.

a lot of cults burn really quick and fast, and die out in a few years, or a few decades, but the ones that last for generations screw up whole families and cultures of people in horrific ways.

trickle down abuse. multi level marketing abuse. my parents were not abusive. but they were, because they raised me in a cult. my parents were not abusive. but I was raised in a cult, which is in itself, inherently abusive. my parents chose to raise me said cult. but both of them were generational cult babies just like I was.

do I blame my parents? no... maybe.

It's way more complicated than anything I could ever answer. Can I blame them for how they hurt my siblings but not for how they hurt me? do I even blame them for how they hurt my siblings or am I just angry?

how can I rationalize the amount of trauma and baggage I carry, and will carry for the rest of my stupid fucking life, because of what they perpetuated?

and at the end of the day, I don't blame them. not really. but it's so much fucking easier if I do.

[glovelylovely]

gay media: “we like each other,,, and we’re both boys!!! (,,>w<,,)”

meanwhile lesbian media: cosmic horror where the entire world becomes a hive mind overnight, and while you don’t want anything to do with it, you also cannot get over the fact that you, a lonely, miserable woman, can be truly, genuinely loved by the entire world, and also, at the end of the day, your dead ex girlfriend, the one woman to love you before the world ended, is in that hive mind somewhere, and you’re not quite ready to let her go.

[posthumous-pagan]

prayers don't have to be perfect by the way.

I pray to the gods in the middle of my classes, my shifts at work, and in the shower.

I pray waiting at the bus stop.

I pray looking for something I lost.

I'm not always the best at consistently praying and leaving offerings at my altar. most of my worship is quick prayers on the go and devotional acts.

that's ok. I'm trying and the gods don't hate me or anything.

they don't hate you either. practice in a way that fits into your life and your needs. that's enough I think.

[stripedchickens]

Since markiplier started playing the new re my brain just keeps going “Mark playing resident evil 9, resident evil requiem, markiplier playing requiem” sooo let’s hope this doesn’t get worse

[from-the-darkroom]

some good news and some bad news.

good: i might be able to leave my bad living situation!

bad: i need money and my current job is giving me only 2 shifts a week and it means i have almost less than $100 in my total savings. at all

so, commissions are open!

here are some of the pieces i’ve done for comms or myself. i can do profile pictures and character sheets and fursonas, whatever really.

dm for pricing and other information!

[vampyresquids]

Actually having the softest, gayest, sappiest, sweetest, kindest breakup with someone you can shift into close friendship with is so special and healing.

Like what do you mean that's my ex? That's my best friend I dated for 4 years. There's a difference.