That's how I knew I'm in Love.
(July 2017)
Nowadays seeing how girls fantasizing over idealistic relationship goals on social media got me thinking of how lucky I am to found him. The one who is completely the opposite of most girls dream 'prince charming'. Who would leave me on 'seen' on whatsapp. No 'good morning' yadas first thing in the morning. He won't check up on me every hour of every day. Rather he will let me go and grow throughout every day of my life. Nevertheless by the end of every each day we will find time for each other. We will have so much to talk about. How our day has been? How much we really miss each other? The conversation flows until one of us fell asleep. Most girls nowadays would flip if they got treated this way. I like it that way; he teaches me that we need to prioritise other commitments in life while committing to each other. It does not always have to be Romeo & Juliet all the time. We will always put our families and friends first. Not neglecting our responsibilities.
Often times, we would call each other names, we laugh, we sang together, we play. From movies to gigs, from karaoke to arcade games. We have our own way of having fun. We treat each other like best friends and lovers at the same time. People will go on wondering what we are. And that's how I knew how real it is. We go against the norms. The norms that we don’t really need to live up the fairy tale to love, that we can love in reality.
I’m a hopeless romantic while he is a realist and rarely to be romantic. He has always have this strong theory about how red roses and surprises are too cliche for his 'standard'. But that is exactly what he did for my 21st Birthday! Little did he know, to me, his presence has already been the best present. Even sometimes instead of exchanging 'I love you' we express it through somewhat I called it art, we let the artwork explain what we have towards each other. Despite of how different we are, we tend to learn acceptance. It is a beautiful experience to truly know a person, it’s even more beautiful that after all we’ve seen, we still choose each other. Other than that, we somehow complement each other's characters like colors in harmony that make each other look brighter.
Instead of getting ourselves caught in any petty arguments, we communicate. We discuss, find solutions and try to understand each other. We also always give each other all the spaces one of us need. Space does not mean ignoring one another but, space is really about respecting both privacy and let them have their own little time to breathe in their own skin. We tend to learn to lower down our ego for the sake of each other which to be honest I find it really hard myself. In reality, love is no competition. Love is compassion and mercy. Never prejudice. Just right and wrong and a lot of understanding. He has never whispers sweet nothing to my ears. He protected me with the ugliest truth. At the same time he filled me with pure love. He’s the man of his words. He proved to me that I can earn his trust. Not once he ever lie to me throughout us being together. He really showed me faith in loving him.
We may live few miles away from each other. However distance made us realise every moment we spent together need to be cherish every second. We work hard to unite once again. We constantly figuring out new ways to make the relationship exciting. Every date is a celebration of us. Every goodbye is like a hole that has been punched through my heart. Even though I knew we will definitely meet again soon. All the waitings, separations, spaces, and goodbyes made us grew stronger.
He is a person I like to always look up to. Hate to admit this but the man is always right! He is a guy who have strong opinion about almost everything which I find it rather annoying sometimes but somehow his theories always make perfect sense. Also, he has to be the wisest guy I’ve ever met. When he talks about his dream or basically anything, I can see the spark of passion in his eyes, the pump of excitement in his breath. I find it all so beautiful! He’s literally pouring his soul out especially when he talks about the future or even me!
Honestly I have learned so much from him and from this relationship. I've never been in a healthier relationship and I believe I will ever be with others. He made everything easy to solve. He made our long distance seems like zilch, zip, na-da, nothing! He made me want more of him. He has inspired me in so many ways. He made me stronger, less fragile, and somewhat independent than I ever was; he pushed me to do things I thought I have no capability of doing it. He expanded my bubbles without popping it. I am the best version of myself because of him.
We build and grow fonder together in this relationship. Love is a two-way street. Give and take. Push and pull. Work together! Love needs to be earn too. Hence, as he hustle around building his own empire up until it reaches the top of the mountains. I will be there for him. To push him high when he is about to crash and fall. Be the brightest torch to light up his dark journey. And when he’s finally there, I hope he sees me through his victory. I'm glad that I found him, or he found me. We found each other and I have faith that 'we'will lasts. Here’s to more memories for us to create together in so much more different places with bunch of polaroids, artsy pictures and words. Here’s to the man who has given me so much love even when I least deserve it. Let me tell you this, no one in this world can possibly love you the way my ruptured soul do. For I, will never trade this gem over any pebbles. I will always treasure it as long as my soul holds my body.
Doesn't matter where we are, we are never far apart,
Doesn't matter where we go, when I'm with you I am home,
Yes, I am home.
