to those poor few that are absolutely aching for more pear content: sucks to suck! but actually. i'll give you a small updatr
things are grim and foreboding and big time sad. i've been feeling really really. really really really bad for a long while now and my psychiatrist even TRIPLED my 10pm antidepressant dose. woag!
other than that: i've done bad things to my body! which i posted then deleted! and might post again just for the sake of consistency. not so woag... i've been under a constant crossfire from school, family and myself and i've been hard at work gigantifying bad thoughts in my head
met a girl, got dumped the super express bullet train way (which is to say; quick) because of the age gap. i don't think much of it, except when i do, but then again it lasted so little it's like if i teleported in front of fhe sun for a nanosecond, barely felt it
been playing games! monster hunter wilds is a fun time for being my first monster hunter ever. i play switchaxe and gunlance, and just switch based on what i feel like playing thanks to the seikret's handy dandy pouch, whom i named delamain to honor cyperpunk 2077's finest self-driving cars
getting spotify to work is a struggle with the recent crackdown on pirated versions of the app, but as long as i don't skip songs it seems to gladly play jolly and miserable beats alike
there are days i just lay on the bed face up and whimper and cry to myself whispering for help to an Entity higher, and days i drop to the floor and curl up and cry... either way, the environment at home is tense. i feel sorry for my mother
i feel like people aren't caring about me as much. memory ever fading... a fitting title, i dig it
there's stuff i left out, probablymaybe? i wpuld like to gently remember all suitors that my ask box is open and empty and picking up dust