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INTRODUCING: the querencia calendar
What is the querencia calendar? What does it mean? Why is there a daffodil in the logo? What can you expect from it? And who are the people behind this mental health calendar?
Find out the answers to these questions with this video, and don't forget to heart, reblog, and follow the querencia calendar tumblr page.
We are Kurt Gomez, Jacqueline Galo, and Lyra Gloria from HUMSS 12-D of DLSU-M SHS. This is our Mental Health Activity Calendar for the month of August.
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There are blank medias in August 11, 18, and 25 because each are videos included in the panels and they exceed Tumblr’s video size limit. Please view the video files in this Google Drive link below:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1N0owmYfHollWu8XeAS4zWxt1W6IXLu6B?usp=sharing
my learning and insights about myself
my age today: 16.
who i am tomorrow: to be discovered
this project was indeed a rollercoaster of nostalgia. unlike most people, i actually enjoyed reflecting who i am today and how much i’ve changed. i stuck to my own style and stayed true to what i post. everything in here is authentic and an actual representation of who lareina bulda really is.
with that, it really wasn’t the easiest project to make. i thought to myself countless times, “do i really know myself?” i asked around what others thought about me, but in the end, i’ve realized only i could really tell who i really am. my friends don’t know me as a daughter, while on the other hand, my parents don’t know me as a friend. i’m still the same person, but i know that people have different understandings of who i am.
so this is me. this is lareina, unfiltered, true, and honest. i’ve realized that i’ve grown and am still continuously growing.
i’ve realized i can’t really change my childhood years and my adolescent years. as much as i want to delete my cringey photos and videos, they made me who i am.
i’ve realized that who i am is reflected in my personality, how i relate to other people, and my body, how i take care of my physical well-being.
i’ve realized that the foundation of who i am and how i base my actions is seen in my core values.
i’ve realized that my likes and dislikes, my strengths and weaknesses, my dreams, my fears, my passion, and my distraction in life is just an extension of who i am, but they do not fully define my worth.
here i am, 16 years later, still learning, still growing. this has been lareina for now! see you all soon. :)
my distraction in life
as mentioned in my likes and dislikes, i’m fond of watching a lot of tv shows and films. on days wherein i’m drowned in homework, it will always be refreshing to catch up on the shows i’ve missed while i was busy. currently, i’m watching grey’s anatomy (progress: s11e05 na ako!) and a korean drama, my first first love. not only is watching my distraction, but i guess it’s an escape from the real world.
in our MIL class, it was taught to us that it’s actually scientifically proven that our viewing habits is heavily based on what we do not experience in real life. for example, i watch grey’s anatomy because, of course, the drama and the angst it gives me, but there’s also a part of me that fulfills the alternate dream of becoming a doctor (in another life, i guess). other than that, i guess the reason why i watch korean dramas (my favorite is W-Two Worlds!!) is because i lack kilig in my mundane love-less lovelife.
my passion
i often tell myself that i’m not good enough for my passion and that i lack the conviction and courage every aspiring lawyer is equipped with. in the end, i have to believe that my determination will be enough to fuel what i love doing. i’m passionate about helping others, so hopefully, one day, this will be manifested in my future work. hopefully, as a lawyer.
my photo doesn’t necessarily give justice to what i want to do when i’m older. how to get away with a murder doesn’t accurately depict what it’s like to be a lawyer, especially in the philippines. in here, we have a poor justice system (just like in the show), but at the same time, it isn’t really as glamorous as tv shows depict it to be.
being a law student alone is difficult as it is. individuals will be tested because of terror professors and difficult readings. but in the end, it’s passion once again. there’s nothing more relieving than being able to help the helpless. i aspire to be like atty. chel diokno one day, defending human rights.
my fears
this is one thing that’s cliché and is probably heard millions of times, but i genuinely fear of not being good enough. ang corny kung iisipin, but it’s the truth. this is a hard pill to swallow for me. i guess i know to myself that i can never please everybody in this world. i fear of not being able to fulfill my promise to my parents and that they might think i’m a disappointment. i’m a people pleaser, but i admit, it hurts different when it’s our parents in the discussion.
this is why this (see attached photo) happens. i was always pegged as someone who follows the rules and tries to excel in almost every aspect in my life. during the day this photo was taken, i haven’t eaten breakfast and lunch, spent almost an hour in the scorching heat for a photoshoot for my org, attended a seminar about my future, and barely had any sleep. that day, i felt like i was pushing myself to the limit. i was afraid of failing to the point my body finally gave up on me.
my fears may hinder me, but i should remember to take care of myself. it’s finally time that shouldn’t let my fear of not being good enough be the reason why my body fails on me. to better days, indeed.
my dreams
it’s not everyday i get to achieve something significant. most days, i find myself lying on my bed, dreading what days have in store for me. despite these conflicts, i make sure that everything i do is to achieve my dreams for myself and for my family.
when i get older, my number one dream in life is to be able to give back to my family. not only is this a dream, but also a promise to myself and to my parents. i dream of buying them a house, comfortable enough for them to live in. i dream of travelling around the world with them using my own paycheck. i want to be able to give back the love they gave me my entire life. this isn’t because i’m in debt, but because i simply love them enough.
other than my family, i wish to have a stable career first, of course. practically, my dreams cannot be put into action without a little money. aside from money, though, what motivates me is the fact that i will be able to extend my help to more people once i work. i understand that i’m not hopeless at all as a teenager, but i guess if i’m older, i will have more resources and more time to extend my help to the ones in need.
lastly, as a hopeless romantic, i also wish to have my own partner in life and of course, to build my own family. ideally, i dream of not the perfect family, but as perfect as it can be. i didn’t exactly grow up in a household where my parents love each other 100%, so that is why when i will be given the chance to build my own family and start my own legacy, i will show my children what 100% truly means.
my strengths and weaknesses
my weaknesses include patience, focus, and being marupok. (2/2)
✘ PATIENCE a wise man once told me that i’m only patient when i need to be. honestly, it was a hard pill to swallow. my mother also tells me that my time will come eventually. this is one weakness i’d like to improve on. at this point in life, i’m taking life in its own pace. i cannot rush things just because i simply want it. i think it’s time i learn to wait.
✘ FOCUS i’m easily distracted and it sucks, but this is one weakness i could adapt from. because i know i lack the focus, i tend to spread out all the important things i need to do (e.g. perdev digital scrapbook). because of my organization skills, i keep track of each day in my life to get back on track.
✘ MARUPOK if you ask lareina’s friends, 99.9% will tell you she’s marupok. i can’t deny this, honestly. no words can explain how much this stresses me out.
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