#persanal

[mrspizzle]

I wish serotonin was real

[starsxinxthexbluexsky]

I'm here trying in vain to be romantic...🤣🤣

[likubears]

Yall i been receiving asks by an anon who i believe is chris but idk... they been saying some really nasty things about me and lisanna strauss ya mira-nees little sister ): idk who tf they think they tallking to like that but the worst part is 😔 they breaf fucking stank and it’s rotting through my brand new phones screen bitch you’re nasty an ugly this shit aint funny !! yall help me plz like im fr abouta cry im so sick of this shit (since their ass wanna read almost everything im posting)

My moms gonna whoop my ass and its all their fault im so scared

[ruscatontheroof]

My defenders (grandfather and father)

Мои защитники (дедушка и папа)

[tesserariuss]

[impossibledinosaurmentality]

Last 'hope' before i give up

He stopped texting a day after we first met in real life. He mentioned that we should meet again soon, but idk what happened, he just stopped replying to my texts. Did he lost interest in me? What did i do wrong? Was my first impression really that bad? Did i scare him off? Idk how to answer these questions, but even if i get it answered I know i will feel more hurt. Anyway, good thing is this one ended quickly. Before I became dependent to him, before i got used to receiving his good morning and good night texts. I kinda know i lost him, when he missed the good night text after we met and the mornings too. Oh well. I'm ok, its just that I cant stop wondering, is there something wrong with me? Why do guys have no interest in me? Why?

[steampoweredbuttbrigade]

Me: *writing a story* oh, I know exactly where this can lead.

Also me: *writes something that literally came into existence in that exact moment and completely disregards continuity*

Me: but i had a plan

[steampoweredbuttbrigade]

Is aggression the answer to changing peoples minds, getting someone to follow your cause, or rally with you? It isnt the case for me, but I'm only one person. Is fighting with everyone about every little thing the sign of greatness? Is it a sign fondly remembered when your story is told for years and years after your death. Will you be remembered for the acts of good you committed not only with this aggressive stance, but potentially because of, this contradictory outlook? Am I simply intellectually below others who might believe this is the right path or the correct action to take? I dont necessarily believe that anyone is below or above anyone, but their are more productive ways of thinking that seem to helps others get money, a job, save peoples lives, fix issues. Does it help anything to conspire to tear others down for their mistakes, their ignorance, their misguided lifestyles? Or would it rather help to inspire someone to change their mind or look at something differently? It doesnt make sense to me to look out at the sea of minds that might come across your views and your approach to sharing them with a blanket aggression that could be attributed to past assault, physical or emotional. Im spreading my views with a hint of disapproval, but it is directed in this post because of one person. I dont understand the point of such behavior. It seems to aggrivate and set in motion a perpetual cycle of anger, frustration, and spite for no other reason that to rally with others with equal or similar views when the point of the post appears to want to change someones mind. Which is good, especially if you feel passionately about something and believe wholeheartedly that your cause is good. I dont think im wrong in feeling like shit when someone insults me about my point of view and yes i should be able to selfreflect and consider my opinion independant of their opinions about me, but I've always felt it was important to live in this world with compassion to others. Despite my pain, I do not think I should deal it out to others at the slightest hint that I might be hurt again. Thats my view, but if someone see this and feels comfortable sharing their opinion about it, please do. Because i want to know.