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my birthday (today) is the one day a year I allow myself to be a bit of a manipulative bastard. I don't usually like formally celebrating, but I do like getting free stuff. so I tell everyone I see that it's my birthday on the off chance they're one of the 20% of people who decides to give me something!

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so maybe part of my issue where I wasn't getting horny anymore, was because I was malnourished. I'm making an effort to eat regular meals and am attempting to gain weight (despite the food insecurity) and uh. well. eating at least two meals per day has really helped.

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[LAST UPDATED ON: 4/14/2026]

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why are banks allowed to take days off that delay the paychecks of people who are not given those days off? Anyway the bank holiday just fucked us over big time because my gf's check got pushed to tomorrow, but our phone bill payment is due today. if we get cut off today, we may not be able to afford the fees to get it turned back on.

fuck this stupid ass bullshit. every time I dare to think we might be doing better finally some shit like this happens and ruins everything. not even bothering with any donation stuff today since there's no way for me to even check my bank balance in the next few hours.

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I sure didn't plan on having a seizure and spending my birthday in the hospital but here I fucking am. everything hurts. I chipped a fucking tooth. I wanted to have fun today but instead I've been waiting FOUR HOURS so far and still haven't been seen by a doctor. I'm lucky to be alive, I was driving when it happened and was thankfully in a spot where my gf could yank the parking brake before I crashed.

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idk if there are other trans men that follow me that feel like this too, but like. I do really wish I could just press a button and turn into a cis man. I know I can get phalloplasty and the tech is really good now but like. I wish I could have a functional one. fertile. even though I don't want kids that share my dna (too many hereditary disabilities that are expensive and painful to accommodate) I do think it would be fun to like. have to worry about that. I fantasize about pregnancy scares sometimes but in the context of like. being the guy who accidentally came inside and not the pregnant one

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the thing they don't tell you about poverty is that once you reach a certain point, you're just kind of itchy all the time. whether it's lack of access to a shower, mosquitoes, rashes, bedbugs, fleas, etc, poverty is fucking itchy.