#personal psa.

[ars0nists]

ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. i will make mistakes. my writing will sound repetitive. my flow will sound uneven, and sometimes all over the place. and that's okay with me because i'm still learning. if it isn't to you, i please ask that you soft block me.

[spideyauntarchived]

this blog is on a semi hiatus until u demons stop with ur clowns and trying to fuck em.

[spideyauntarchived]

anyways here’s the deal. I have to take really good care of myself this week because I’m .. really imbalanced and my body will literally betray me and make me physical ill. That being said, I’m gonna be mostly bedridden and watching defenders / actually doing some replies. I will tag everything and w/e but it’s all a bunch of me falling in love with the team and living the dream of Lewis tan as iron fist and with way better lines. Thank you for your patience but right now, my health could really fall and I’m trying to keep it together.

[tragicwrit]

hi all! so, i generally try to keep things rp resource related here but something has been crossing my personal dash that kinda put a damper in my mood last week. and i first want to say that as a prompts resource, it's very common for multiple sources to have similar concepts. that's completely fine and the fact so many love offering resources is great. my issue is that my most reblogged post was literally stolen by another source.

i can understand taking inspo from others and remaking your own thing based off of something, but this is literally a copy/paste deleting 2 of my items and you can see by the timestamps who did it first. i would have reached out personally but they haven't been active in a few months and there's no means to contact them privately. so i only ask that people reblog the original version and don't support the stolen post? i feel silly to ask, but it was a bit of a slap to see their version cross my dash multiple times and realize this was stolen from me months ago.

[deathstouched-blog]

A BIG OL’ PSA ABOUT MY REAL LIFE SITUATION

I’m making edits to my page, doing my icons and my house chores but I need to tell you all something: I will only be able to reply during late night hours during the week from now on. Usually after 11pm so I can avoid my aunt causing a ruckus. On the weekends I will do plotting, headcanons, and general chatting with others on here or on d/i/scord mobile - so ask me about my username if we’re mutuals to each other. 

I know, it sucks, but I’m an adult that’s balancing a lot of work along with school and now a job plus a potential relationship. I have a lot going on. 

[spookyrejects]

Hello, i feel like i should make some sort of post now explaining why I will not be reopening my ask box any time soon. I one hundred and twenty percent know I am not a perfect person. I have really bad social anxiety, I am too proud sometimes, I don’t put absolutely everyone before me. I am not the nicest person you’ll ever meet and sometimes I’m mean for no good reason. Sometimes ( most of the time ) I make mistakes, and there are things that i’ve done that i’m not proud of in the slightest. I’ve gotten myself into trouble, and I’ve gotten yelled at by people who I use to consider friends.

This is also not me searching for pity, or trying to make myself look like the poor victim. I detest being the victim, I just don’t want to be involved in drama. hence why when things happen I ask “why me” because I never asked for any of the drama i’ve received or been involved in. But I guess no one entirely asks, do they? either way, seeing as though whenever i do something and a mistake has been made ( which, is a fucking mistake, ) i seem to get overwhelmed with my ask been filled with reasons why i’m wrong, ( or people trying to make me feel better, which is lovely! i just don’t know how to respond to them, though. ) and honestly, I can’t handle that.

I’m not this strong individual who doesn’t care about what people have to say. I’m not someone who can accept when I’m wrong as easily as I showcase on here. I get anxiety, fierce and terrifying anxiety and I spent a lot of time last night thinking about this and I feel like it’s the right move. I have the friends I trust and need, people that i’m dependent on with my life and I know will be there for me and actually speak to me like i’m a human being. I do not need anymore friends, I don’t want to put myself through the bullshit of maybe getting into another fight with someone because they didn’t even want to see my point of view, rather jump on the band wagon.

i understand that i am not a perfect person, nor am i someone to be idolized or considered a “hero” which people have said to me in the past. I am not this amazing writer and I’m not someone who you should fear. I’m not someone who likes to fight with everyone and I’m not someone who wants to make you feel bad or uncomfortable. I want everyone to be okay, i want to hold you all close and let you vent to me when you’re upset. I just wanted to be that friend to you guys that I knew I didn’t have at all in my life and that’s what I have always been trying to do. But i’m scared, now, which is fucking fine. I’m allowed to be afraid of talking to people and socializing because it’s my own mind, and i take them how i take them.

for some reason, no matter what someone does if they’re wrong -- they’re gonna be wrong forever by some people’s standards. I’ve had enough shit happen to me on this blog from the jump and i feel like this is making me out to be someone i’m not. people are intimidated by me and i don’t like it at all. I don’t want people to feel like they can’t talk to me or just chat freely because that’s not how it is. I love people, or well.. I did, i’m just a bit timid now and i need some time to get back on my feet & in a stable mindset where i’m not afraid to look into my askbox.

there’s a lot that’s wrong with this community, and i can’t stand it. honestly, i’ve been bitching and moaning about how much i hate his community for weeks now, and it sucks. I know it’s probably annoying to read as well, and i’m deeply sorry if I have been annoying you but -- i just wish when the community was an actual community now it’s like a talent show. -- who can have the best icons, who can make the best theme, who can sound the smartest, who can make who look like an idiot. Like, what happened to you that you have to make people feel so small?

I’m sorry if I’m not allowed to feel this way.

I’m sorry if I don’t deserve the right to have immense social anxiety.

I’m sorry I get upset when i am being told I’m a “thief” and “transphobic”

I’m sorry I get upset when my “friends” start to shit talk me on their blogs

and I’m so fucking sorry that “RESPECT” is something this community doesn’t know how to produce in high tension situations.

[iamxwintersoldier]

[[just kind of a personal psa to people: if you ever feel like you can't approach me, or you're too shy, that's okay! i won't make you be my friend if you feel like you need to take your time~ but i will let you know something that will probably help: i'm just as nerdy as you. (probably moreso, but that's another thing.) i'm a very dorky soul who curses way to damn much. i can be stand-offish sometimes, but that's just my nature. it's not me trying to put you off, i swear! so if you ever feel like i'm too cool for your friendship or something, i promise to you, i'm not~