#personal strife

[solar-megafauna]

tragic: local butch's messy dramedy about dumping a cis catholic who is provably the least emotionally supportive person at her board game club derailed by the need to comfort that exact catholic over the pain and missed opportunities of being broken up with

[searenbound]

What is this mood and what the hell do I do with it? I’m working right now what the hell do I do with wanting something or someone to break or be broken by something or someone while working

[rainbowflavouredkitten]

I'm a piece of shit.

I hate seeing other people in their happy relationships when this loneliness is eating me alive. I get so angry at them. My sister says anger is a secondary emotion. I hate admitting it, but my primary emotion is typically jealousy. I want what you have, people. And I hate you for it.

[asphy7]

One more week. I can’t wait. GEEEXZ

[ryaevelon]

Being ace in a relationship is pretty hard sometimes.

You are frustrated for not reciprocating emotions or feelings, and instead of believing your partner when they say that it's okay, you are sure they are just lying.

You can feel the comfort when they can trust that you won't cheat on them, but you will never feel that same comfort. Always living with the constant fear that you are not good enough and are not giving them what you need, so obviously they're going to just get it from someone who will certainly fulfill that for them.

Tack on the outer conflict you get from friends and family, the constant barrage of what you are doing wrong from the media, and even the infighting of your own 'community' of people.

Not to mention the notions that were drilled into your head since you were an infant.

Yet we still seek companionship from people.

[neenajaydon]

Smeg.

A friend has recently lost her father and she’s been very prickly to deal with. She’s off work this week but sent me an email at 9am titled “Don’t Read This at Work”. So of course I obsessed, and cried off and on, and had stomach troubles, because anxiety is FUN like that.

When I read it, she was telling me how I’d hurt her (during a conversation she’d forced on my by implying if it didn’t happen, we wouldn’t be friends anymore). Yeah, I did not take that well. I started composing a very careful reply, thought why the fuck should I take this? Bawled at Roomie for a bit, then . . . looked up how to deal with grieving people lashing out. “Don’t take it personally.”

Well, shit. Even though I’m actually grieving over the cat I just put down, I get to be the bigger person. I just emailed her back saying she can be mad at me, that’s fine, just don’t do it on my work email again pls. Best I can do, really . . .