#personal thoughts folder

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does anyone actually know where we got the big dick matsukawa headcanons because it’s so true but how the fuck did we figure that out

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UNRELATED to writing or haikyuu but this is what i’ve been up to lately…

i don’t think i’ll ever be over seeing djo live, and i also will never be over catching the hat he wore then threw😕🙏 therefore i will never stop talking about it whenever i listen to his music

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going through the ushiwaka feels again and i had the thought of how shattered he must’ve been after losing to karasuno and then not making it to nationals in his third year…

and call me stupid call me delusional but let’s all just like! think for a second about his backstory because if that’s not traumatic i don’t really what can be like… you’re telling me his dad begged on his KNEES in front of his mom and her elders to let him be left handed because he believed that his son was made to be a volleyball player with it, and his dad, who gave up all parental rights and authority so that he could become the player that he is today, LITERALLY LEAVES THE FAMILY AND GOES OVERSEAS HELLO????

and so he stays with a mom who had his own father beg on his knees all because he uses his left hand, and plays volleyball the way that his father taught him to because nobody else cared enough to train his left-handedness. he becomes a U19 rep, the ace of his dad’s alma mater, he trains and he teaches himself how to utilise this power that is his left hand, a power that he gets to keep at the sacrifice of his own family.

and in his final year at Shiratorizawa, one of the last connections he still has to the father, that he had to watch leave, all because of his greatest strength as a player, he plays against these newbies. fallen angels. forgotten champions that don’t stand a chance against him because his team is simply put, better. they always have been.

but he loses?

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i love it when a bad bitch isn’t the most technically skilled but has godlike intuition i’m looking at u isagi yoichi

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Spoilers for arcane act 3!!!!

i fuckjng KNEW the cloaked man was viktor I KNEW IT I HAVE BEEN SAYING THAT ALL ALONG I KNEW HE WAS THE MAN WHO SAVED JAYCE I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I CALLED IT

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i’m crashing out rn so im gonna put the next 12:51 FM chapter aside for now (sorry akaashi!) and here are some things i’d like to just ramble about after arcane act three

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

- they were really feeding us jayvik stans I NEVER DOUBTED YOU JAYCE!!!! I DEFENDED HIM ALL ALONG!!!!

- parallels between jayvik fighting while levitating up to hexgate and their first discovery together as they levitated i am unwell

- parallel of caitlin finding vi in the cell again punching the wall and s1 ep3 was insane also THANK FUCK IT WASNT MADDY!!!

- soeaking of maddy im too fucked up to have any analytical thoughts about her rn so glad she died but i’ll probably regret saying that after some clear thought

- the parallels in thsi show are truly unmatched

- ekko amd zdrive was something i was so hyped for and i’m so glad it happened!!

- jayvik

- jayvik

- i miss my wife viktor

- the framing of jayce in the arcane was chef’s kiss omg so beautiful

- jinx hallucinating silco i’m unwell

- ekko the goat since day 1

- gonna rewatch it to catch more details but the entirety of season 2 has been so incredible genuinely the best TV i’ve watched in years

- one daughter watched vander die the first time and it began a chain of violence, the other daughter died with him to end it im dead done deceased

- there’s more that i’m not recalling and i’ll come back to this but! let me make one thing clear before i lose track of it: it all comes back to love and ambition and i’ll expand on that when i’m not fucked up

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fuck arcane survivor jayce we’ve got an arcane survivor at home rn and it’s me in front of the rolling credits

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i have broken free from finals!!! 7/7 FINISHED FINISHED FINISHED!!!!!!!