the fuckedup fun...times/feels/whatevers... when you havent slept well in forever, or much of anything at all in you dont even remember how many days... and close to delirious bc of that or added to the weird pains and... ironically more worried about bestfriend. who you can’t even talk with normally bc of stupid things, and probably wanting that most of all, and youre just stuck in all of those fun feels (stuck isnt the right word, since that would imply there could be done anything to..those... well maybe but mostly not from your side)












