#peter 004

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So. This is weird, probably. But I brought over a thanks for saving my ass bottle of firewhiskey and some thank you for saving my kid’s ass brownies that my foster mum made for you? I didn’t actually see you after... well, everything. The boys and Lily said you were okay, though. Are you? Okay, I mean. 

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peter Mon... I did something really, really stupid. And I'm sort of freaking out a little bit. Or a lot :disappointed_relieved:

monica Did you rob a bookstore while you were drunk? cause it is the only bad thing you are capable of do tell though.

peter Honestly, I wish that's what I've done last night. I don't even know how to say it... Uh, you know what? Nevermind.

monica ehm...with your own words, if you want? Okay, I will be here waiting....

peter judgement free zone... right?

monica ALWAYS

peter Promise?

monica I promise

peter So I went out last night for a drink. At some public event at a bar. And I ran into someone. Who may or may not have been a student...

monica Awwwww that is cook cool* and did you like...talked?

peter Yeah. We talked. You know I'm a lightweight. So is he, apparently. I had a lot of fun, Mon. But... I can't have that sort of fun with him. Never with him. Or with any other student for that matter. But I did. I didn't do anything! Nothing like, physical or anything. But... I had too good of a time.

monica hmmm is there any ....like...how should I call it...hmm attraction?

peter There might be... After last night, I see him a little differently. We got along really well. Too well, even.

monica hmm I bet you do That is good though? I did promise not to judge and I don't see anything bad until now but ....can I please please PLEASE AT LEAST tease you about it?

peter No, no. We got along in a way that made me want to buy his drinks and walk him home after... I even gave him my number when he asked. That is SO bad, Mon. No, absolutely not.

monica oh my god PETE you're smitten HE ASKED FOR YOUR NUMBER? I don't believe it is that bad As long as you keep that boundary of....what happens outside of class doesn't influence anything else and you'll be fine

peter I am not smitten, Monica. I just had a good time. It was almost too easy to talk to him and conversation just kept... flowing. Yeah, he did. And I gave it to him. So it's not a surprise that he texted me this morning. Apologizing. You think so? I mean, that's almost like you're saying it's not too bad to keep talking to him outside of class...

monica uh-huh Oh so now you are talking? It is something that happens when you like someone. YES... there's no harm in that I mean we know deep down what is good for us and apparently that guy is right for you, just not in all circumstances for now ;) tell me more about him :)

peter Yeah, we're texting right now. Which only made me freak out more and text you. I wasn't going to, but I tell you everything. It was just one night. I am not smitten after just one night. Really? I felt like it was just... so, so wrong. Besides, he's likely at least quite a few years younger than me. He's cute, Mon. He's really cute. I didn't realize how much until last night. He's smart, too. Honestly, one of the smarter ones in class, but I'm not supposed to say that.

monica OH MY GOD You made all sound like you had sex " It was just one night" of harmless drunk flirting will you put other burdens in front of it? Now it is the age gap? AAAAAWWWW Yeah, that kind of crosses a boundary. Don't tell him that before he finishes his classes with you Just tell it to me and I reallt don't mind listening to you gush  over him. you should learn when his birthday is and what time he was born we should find his astrological map and see if the stars want you to be together oh my god- sleepover ?!??! I need that to happen

peter Omg, don't even mention that word right now. I'm just barely coming to terms with the fact that I kind of want to hang out with him again. And you're going to freak me out again. Well, shouldn't I take that into consideration? I never imagined that I'd be into someone so much younger than me. Trust me, I don't plan on telling him any of that. I'm not going to gush over him! And I'm not smitten. If the stars want us to be together? I'm rolling my eyes at you. I am always down for a sleepover though! I'll buy some wine - I might need it. My sentiments, exactly. He's barely turning 26. Monica. 26.

monica stop calling yourself grandpa Of course, I am right if you freaked out on his face, I would expect he is hesitant to talk to you !!! hmmm I know you have more stuff to say abour Scott about* SO? you are 33 would it make any difference for you? when is his birthday? Did you ask? PLEASE ASK

peter I basically am a grandpa. Yeah... I guess so. I did sorta freak out a little :confused: talking to you about it calmed me down a bit, I think. I mean... maybe. It's the 19th of this month.

monica Aaaaaaah A CAPRICORN Hmm i need to do a chart for your aquarius and his capricorn suprisingly, you have matched with a much tenser star sign than your hippy aquarius it is weird.  i don't know if it will be more different than with James. He did have a strong scorpio energy. Can't imagine how you both were in bed. glad I am calming you down.

peter A Capricorn. You’re making me feel like I need to read more into this stuff. It’s always been more your thing than mine though. Maybe it’s best that way :laughing: you can tell me everything that I need to know, rather than me adding yet another thing into my oh, so busy schedule. Ah, yeah, James. I told you that I talked to him recently? Oh. We had fun, in bed :eyes: You definitely did. Thank you.

monica it isn't even my thing. I just know a couple of stuff and I am winging it what i am doing though is distracting you from the main burden you were trying to put on yourself and Scott this is actually my thing NO YOU DID NOT All the boys for Peters Peter* and none for Gretchen Wieners bye :rofl: I BET YOU DID

peter You know more than I do when it comes to that stuff. I thought it was a very obvious, unable to overlook burden, Monica. But I guess... maybe I was sorta overreacting a little bit. I’m just being honest :man_shrugging_tone1: Not all of the boys, just the ones I want. :laughing: you crack me up though, Mon. Also... He may or may not have invited me to his bday party. I said yes. You’re going with me.

monica it isn't that big but I can understand not being able to overlook it OH so you like both James AND Scott now YOU HEARTBREAKER I was so focused on you gushing over him that I forgot about him...OH MY GOD Yea, I am coming. YES he likes you too and not to forget yeees I know I am hilarious :blush:

peter At first, I really didn’t think I could. But after the shock of it all and talking to you... I can breath easy again. Thanks, again. OH SHUSH YOU NNOW THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT. James and me are way over. Have been for a while now. That isn’t changing. Yeah... and I think we just agreed that we both want to hang out still? Wow. Ok. I’m doing this. It’s getting a little hard to breath again, but I think I’m ok. As friends. We’re friends. He likes me as a friend. You are! You always make me laugh :hugging:

monica don't even mention it. I am here to gush over.Scott anyway. Still nothing else other than "cute" and "super smart" THIS IS AWESOME tell that to yourself at night, when the only person you can think of is YOUR FRIEND you don't know if he sees you as afriend only, still

peter Why do I feel like you’re fishing :face_with_raised_eyebrow: I think that you want me to talk more about him so you can tell me again that I’m smitten. :man_facepalming_tone1: we ARE friends. There’s nothing else for us to be right now. I’m sure that he does. I do think that I really wanna see him again before his bday in a couple of weeks :flushed:

monica This isn't me fishing, this is me actually asking you about him. I want to know more about him, so that I will know exactly if he likes you more than a friend, YOU AQUARIAN DOOFUS .... Fine, Mr Peter * I am not smitten * Brice Did you actually ask him to meet before his birthday? LIKE after this freak-out of yours?! Oh boy, the guy is going to be soooo confused either he likes you or not Which he does. The fact that he asked for your phone number...hmmm I always keep forgetting that.

peter Ok, ok. So I sorta cleared it up a bit with him? I told him that I overreacted and that I think that we could be friends or whatever, assuming he wants to be. He told me I assumed correctly AND sent me a :wink: emoji which I don't think even means anything, but??? He also told me that he prefers that we continue hanging out over not hanging out at all. So there's that, too. Aparrently, he doesn't find me boring at all and I need to stop saying that. I mentioned seeing him again before his party in two weeks and he invited me to the coffee house he works at. So I guess I'll see him there sometime before his party. Yeah after my freak out. I think my freak out has mostly passed. Mostly. And I'm not smitten - I'll keep saying it. Well, that could've easily been influenced by the alcohol. Much like the ENTIRE night was. You know I wouldn't have done those things sober.

monica :wink::wink::wink: you are cute That's what it means and both Scott and I acknowledge that i am not big with internet flirting , but when he winks at you when are you face to face, maybe it is your time to hyperventilate. I always hyperventilate when people wink at me....i don't know if the same thing will happen when somebody winks at me through text?? enjoying each others' company check AAWWWW he actually told you to stop saying you are boring? I hope AT LEAST you listen to him instead of anyone else who says that you aren't seriously though? I don't remember; who told you are boring and you believed them? finding ways to see each other more- check check you are not drunk now- YOU ASKED HIM NOW TO MEET

peter Shhh, I'm not. A wink face is just a wink face - it could mean a variety of things, I'm not even going to spare any other thought to it anymore. I think this entire situation has me wanting to hyperventilate?? If I'm honest. Still just wrapping my head around it, I guess? But I accept that... I want to see him again. I doubt anything will come from it all, but I don't think I've had as much fun as I did last night in a really long time. Yeah, he did. I don't know. I'm just not into a lot of things a lot of other people are, and people don't find books as interesting as I do. That, in my head, equates to people thinking I'm boring. We're meeting at his work. While he's working. I don't think that means anything, really?? But, I'm still looking forward to it.

monica what does it usually mean when you add a winkface on a text? you will never know. I think both of my pretty serious relationships came out of nothing? Like I never expected I will end up with that person? So chillax and enjoy it you are calling yourself boring even before getting to know someone? You barely know Scott. Barely said anything,right? it means that he hasn't got any other time to meet you between work and college so he is just making time inbetween breaks JUST TO SEE YOU? my heart just friends, my cute little a** still looking forward to listening to the next bunch of gushing over Scott need to inform me about your texts as well they'd better be good

peter I don't know that I use it much, other than with James when we were together, but it was a little... suggestive. It was different. A relationship is reaaaaaaly far fetched right now. But I get what you're saying. In a way, my relationship with James came out of nothing, too. I mean, in the beginning, I didn't think I'd date him. I'm enjoying talking with him. Or he just wants to pay me back for his drinks last night :thinking: :man_shrugging: Yeah, just friends! :rolling_eyes: I guess that I can't wait to vent it all out to you because who else can I tell this to? Or would, anyways. I trust you the mostest :hugging: I teased him a bit - about surprising him at work. He doesn't want me to do that :laughing: so as funny as I think it would be, I told him I'd respect that. We're just... chatting now. Continuing conversation from last night, so just sorta getting to know each other, I guess.

monica you forgot to mention me what happened with james? You started talking again? but yeah, scorpio energy. Everything is suggestive for them you know what I mean. Even that uncertain phase you are now with scott it is a relationship...kinda? In my head it makes sense. see......equality. let him pay you back. And once you two are done with that, you can take turns in paying each other's drinks. WE Are going to have a looooong winter I am so glad for that!!! OH NOW you are teasing him too honestly that is so cute of you still as interesting as yesterday? More interesting than yesterday? on a scale from one to five....how much more interesting he is ( from as interesting as yesterday to I am completelt infatuated with him- that is 5 by the way) 0-5 i am waiting

peter Oh, yeah. I got distracted by talk about a certain 26 years old :upside_down: But yeah, so I texted him, but only because I heard one of his favorite songs and I was curious as to how he was doing. Then we sorta made plans to meet up last night, but I realized I had made plans prior already so I had to bail. I invited him to meet me, but he never responded. He might be a little upset? I don't know. I guess I get what you mean? I mean, there's a certain level up... mutual interest, I think. I think that's what you're getting at? The things that go on in that head of yours :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: I don't like when people buy me things. I prefer to be the one doing the buying - I'm weird like that. But I guess I can let him. I mean, I'm not gonna fight him on it. Just a little. It's kinda fun :laughing: :man_facepalming: I don't know about COMPLETELY INFATUATED But... maybe a 4. I don't know. He sorta asked me to watch a tv show with him and wow, okay - should I say yes? I mean, I want to, so I guess that I will. I said yes. We're going to watch a freaking show together... should I freak out? I feel like I should a little.

monica lovely :joy::heart_eyes: How cute!!! And awww maybe he could be a little bit mad. But he will get over it; I don't think you did something that bad? maybe it was meant to be and if James was there you wouldn't meet Scott or Scott wouldn't approach yes exactly. I am currently aaaaall ideas but I need someone to help me with them. I feel like most people i have met are scam and the places are pretty shitty :flushed: Well maybe you have met your match, because as it seems Scott doesn't like that either XD I love it that you are having fun with teasing him. You know, it creates so much happiness around you. I can feel it through the text :) 4 is "it'a just a little crush" it is funny that you are asking me like I am going to decide for you wow you are both eager to meet each other more and more no you are going to watch a show. friends do that right???:wink::wink::wink:

peter I think he might be. He hasn't texted me at all since, so... i think he's definitely upset :confused: i hope he doesn't feel like i stood him up or something. That wasn't my intentions. Something tells me that if I weren't alone last night, no, Scott wouldn't have approached me. You've got the best ideas, except when you try to get me to admit that i'm completely infatuated. Well, that's also a little far fetched. But yeah, I guess he doesn't. So i'll take your advice and let him buy my coffees. It's fun when it's sorta playful, you know? Maybe it's a subtle way of... flirting a little. Maybe. Can you??? I mean, it's got me feeling some sort of way, so I guess you're, once again, right. :rolling_eyes: you should've started by telling me what each number stands for. I wish you could decide for me tbh!! It'd make this so much easier. I don't know if I'd say eager. Do you think he's eager?? Idk if I'm eager, just... looking forward to it. YES FREINDS DO THAT, MONICA - WE DO THAT. Shoot. Shoot. I asked him if he was okay with the vibe last night ( you know, it was sorta like, date like I'M INTERSTED IN YOU LET ME WALK YOU HOME AND BUY YOUR DRINKS at least, that's the vibe i felt ), and he said he's okay with it. What am I doing, Mon???

monica ooooh you are gonna explain when he gets over it cannot blame a woman from trying besides, the only person who can admit things for yourself is you. Nobody can make you.  I am, just making observations so you do subtly playful flirting with Scott at the moment? In your texts. No, I think you are deciding pretty great for yourself feeling some sorta way how?:face_with_monocle: you are both eager to meet. He invited you to his birthday. You threw him back a suggestion meeting before his birthday and he ended up suggesting you going to the place he works. He suggested watching a show with you . I am counting 3 opportunities for you to meet unless you suggested something else back....so it is 4? NEVER BEEN INTERESTED In YOU IN THAT WAY YOU ARE IN SCOTT. BECAUSE...DO YOU WANT ME TO USE THE F WORD..... ??? STOP KIDDING YOURSELF I AND SCOTT ARE NOT THE SAME. because I am not interested in guys that are into guys...CAPICHE? yah....like yah...Another good hint he is into you you want scott. Scott wants you back ...most likely deep breaths and go for it, man

peter Or he just won't speak to me ever again. I'm far from infatuation, okay? Crushing - fine, I'll admit it. But that's it. Yes, you are. I think you're also getting a kick out of it and teasing me :laughing: I do care to continue to hear your observations though. Just a little bit. I feel like it's almost too easy to fall into that teasing with him. I guess... maybe because I'm crushing. Like some sort of way. Yeah yeah, I get what you mean. I think he's... sort of, maybe feeling this, too. I told him that I'm trying to figure out where this line between us is drawn - you know, giving our circumstances and all,  he said he's trying to figure that out, too. So yeah. I guess I'm really doing this. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT F WORD YOU ARE REFERRING TO, MONICA BUT I UNDERSTAND OK CAPICHE :unamused: :unamused: Yeah... I'm starting to think so, too :grimacing: Okay... I guess I'm going for it?

monica OH MY GOD FINALLY Can you blame me? Literally you came to me like you have committed some kind of murder :smiling_face_with_3_hearts::smiling_face_with_3_hearts::smiling_face_with_3_hearts: I am pretty sure you would do the same for me. OH he is on the same page? Hallelujah!!!! oh my god- I feel like singing Aphrodite- don't forget me- Romeo and Julliette me aaaaaaahhhhhh i bet you know damn well what the f word is yes go go go Also, is James the kind of person that would get mad over that? In your experience? I mean...I doubt it would last forever?

peter :joy: it was almost inevitable when you didn’t tell me how terrible of an idea this all is. I let my guard down a bit. I thought I was being irrational. Well! Can you really blame me for freaking out a bit? I mean, really? You’re absolutely right - I would. It sort of sounds like he might be? Save the singing for karaoke, okay? :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: I don’t know what word you are referring to here :thinking: He might, yeah. It won’t last forever. He’ll be done giving me the silent treatment at some point. I thinkS *think

monica I always freak out when I am crushing on someone. But I don't blame you for the reason you freaked out but you said it so many times, when I told you it's okay...I am going to be merciless with the teasing about it. the f word is a synonym of the thing you aren't going to do to Scott just yet because you are taking baby steps :wink: It surprises me because you are noticing stuff in midst of panicking a few seconds ago well let's hope the silent treatment won't last that much at least. What kind of relationship do you want to have with him?

peter I sorta freak out a little, too but this was an entirely different freak out. I’m counting down the days I can tease you back! :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: :man_facepalming_tone1: I’m not even thinking about that... yet. Not really, anyways. Because yes! Baby steps. Well, I feel like he’s been a bit forward with some things and it’s making even me question if maybe he is sorta... interested, too. With James? Friends, of course. If that. It’d be nice to have that again with him... we were friends before we dated.

monica You are going to be counting down lots of days; I don't think I will be interested IN ANYONE  aaaaanyyyyytiiiime sooon and what are you thinking right now? Forward about what kind of things? what if he is? I do hope it is solved out? And I get to see him soon too

peter Well, still! Have some fun :stuck_out_tongue: you’re single, after all! For the first time in a looooong time. Well... just him and the idea of maybe like... I don’t know, dating him? If it even gets to that point because it might not? Just that he’s interested in some way? I mean, the fact he’s texting me and wanting to still hang out, I think, is sorta forward. Well, it would be if he texted back.

monica I want to focus on myself. If someone comes to my life at the moment, I feel like I will be tok vulnerable and leave everything behind and dedicate my life to him( like i did with voldemort) Maybe it gets to that and maybe he could be your new bf? Think positively Well the guy shows interest, can you blame him with a cute face such yours? Oh is it bothering you that he hasn't texted back?

peter And that’s a great idea. Focusing on yourself could include some... stress reducing activities. You know? I hear you. You can date a little and not dedicate your life to someone though. My new bf... I don’t know about that, it’s way too early to think about that sort of thing, don’t you think? Oh, shhh. I’m not even that cute. I mean, a little?  He could just tell me that he’s mad instead of ignoring me, you know?

monica hmmm I know where you are heading at with that....stress reducing activities :dizzy_face: stress reducing activities at the moment I don't really want to date. I feel like it is too early... again think positively.

peter Good god, Mon. He sent my mind to the gutter just now and NOW I’m thinking things :flushed: I don’t even know if he meant to, but he did. I should’ve known I’d walk into that one. He’s concerned with his grades - about me being easy on him now that we’re chatting outside of class,  it I told him that if anything is go harder on him... you can imagine what I walked into with that one :flushed::flushed::flushed::flushed::flushed: Yes, you do. I’m just saying, it’s an option. Might do a little good. No commitments, just fun and being single. Only you know. If it’s too early, I mean. But he who shall not be named has already taken 10 years of your life... why waste anymore? I just don’t want to assume anything... I don’t want to get my hopes up.

monica :rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl: OH MY GOD yes you did walk into that one. You walk into a lot of things like that actually. It may or may not be your expertise XD feels too early still fine still not getting your hopes up is a good thing

peter :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: I wish I hadn't. I wasn't think about anything sexual right now and now I am and I just :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: It goes over my head a lot!! I can't help that my mind isn't always in the gutter like some peoples. Well, then it's still early. That's okay. Exactly. I don't want to get my hopes up and then it turns out his interests in people are fickle and next week or next month I'll be yesterdays news. I mean, I know college guys - I was one of them once upon a time :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes: And just because he's interested now, doesn't mean he will continue to be. Maybe I will end up boring the hell out of him. Also... we may or may not have made a few more plans to hang out more? I don't know if we'll get to it all, but :eyes:

monica oooh what exactly are you thinking? you said no karaoke until later on but oh my god I am singing to U+Your Hand nonstop since you got yourself into this situation :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes: is Scott's mind always in the gutter? what do you mean? :unamused: what happened? Did he tell you that he is interested in someone else? oh my god stop with the boring people thoughts. You definitely don't I hope you will :smiling_face_with_3_hearts::fingers_crossed:

peter I am NOT going to tell you that. :laughing: god, now you're going to get that song stuck in my head, too I don't know. I wouldn't be surprised if it were. He's an almost 26 year old in college. It's likely. No, nothing like that. I'm just saying. He's young. He's attractive. In college. Exploring all of these different paths being presented to him now that he's out here on his own. He does have this friend, Liam, from work. But I don't think he's interested in him like that. Who knows though. You never really know, especially in the beginning. I just can't help but think it, you know I can get a little insecure sometimes :confused: And in this scenario, I'm the older, boring, nerdy, professor. I'm not young and hot like a majority of his fellow classmates. Really flustered :flushed: we're still sorta going off of that comment earlier about being harder on him... and about where that line is drawn because I feel like it just keeps getting drawn further and further away with the way he's talking. He asked me if I wanted him to stop, but... well, I was honest. Honestly, I feel better if he sorta takes the lead in that sort of aspect... because I don't want to overstep and say something he isn't ready for, then he'd be uncomfortable and it'll be like taking a few steps backwards. Admittedly, I don't really want to do that - go backwards, I mean. I was thinking about getting him the first few Umbrella Academy comics. We talked about him borrowing mine, but this way, he'll have his own to start his own collection, if he'd like to. He said he likes the show, so. You think so? That'd be fitting for this nickname he's given him. What makes you think that?

monica that is also very cute of you I like flustered Peter you can probably answer him like in the space that he has drawn the line so that you won't scare him? OH that is so nice. I will probably get him planner supplies. I found a couple of sets that are super cute just a hunch you don't usually go to the guy you like and say hi this is the boy i like the other one in your made up scenario maybe they like...talk about stuff too. And he like encouraged Scott? I don't know

peter Peter hasn't been this flustered in a very long time. I don't think that I'm scaring him... at the same time, it's good to take it a little slow anyways, right? I mean, I don't want to jump too far into the sexual aspects of it all. Even though my mind is wandering quite a bit now... quite a bit. Why must my imagination be so vivid. Planner supplies - god, make it more ovbious that I've given you an entire play by play, will you? Maybe. We've both sorta... settled into the idea of this rather quickly. And for myself, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't have been able to do that.

monica Monica doesn't know if she should speak in third person too? Slow is always good. at the moment if anyone approached him, I would like to take it slow? before Andrew....do you remember the guy that has convinced himselr was so infatuated with me that didn't even bother setting the pace and just surpassed my boundaries? Still remember that and still think I have wasted my time with him too :flushed:so as slow as it takes Well it is one of your many good attributes. Your imagination :smirk::exploding_head: 1) bookstores are full of them and it is something that you buy someone and you are sure they need it? And 2) it is a way to give my blessing. I feel the bff should do that, right? :kissing_heart:

peter I think we are done speaking in third person. Slow is good. But I feel like I freaked him out or something and now I want to crawl into bed and forget that I've done something as stupid as let myself crush on a student :upside_down: I do remember that guy! He was sorta creepy. I'm so glad that he wasn't the one you ended up being with for 10 years. In this case, I'm not very sure it's doing me any good? :thinking: :man_facepalming: I guess so. I mean, he already knows I've spoken to you about him because I stupidly let it slip.

monica besides a student , he is super attractive and probably into you Well, he is allowed to freak out a bit right? I mean getting into a thing like that ...it is big. As much as you are allowed to freak out, he is too. Cut the boy some slack. thankfully, I cut him off quite early. All this situation was eating me alive though Well... you and your hand toniiiiight :notes::notes::notes: And didn't it slip to him anything else about Liam? Oh my god, I need to know that. I will probably have to talk to him and exchange calming techniques :joy:

peter But how sure are we? That he’s into me, I mean. I’ve been known to over analyze and read way too much into things. You know this about me. Yeah, of course he is. I mean, I’m sorta freaking out, too. I’ve been out of the ‘dating game’ since James. I’m bad at this. I know. You’re right. He has every right to freak out, as much as I do, even. I mean, his English Lit professor is low key, sort of, maybe hitting on him. SO. YEAH. HE CAN FREAK OHT A LITTLE. Literally the soundtrack of my life the past, long few months though. Have to talk to Liam?? Why?? Wow. Ok. I trust you. You know this, but when it comes to my dating life and someone I’m crushing on... maybe not as much????

monica I don't know; you have to let me read your texts, take notes on them and like...make you read them every once in a while to confirm that he is actually into you. I don't know how much...:thinking:but he is enough to keep him texting with you? and I have been doing it for ten years straight...look how well it went? I don't think it matters I believe that as long as you have a certain pace? And you keep respecting each other's boundaries...both of you will be fine It like I heard the caps lock in your own voice? You had a long day texting....maybe you should try napping? oh come on, I will be there with you. I don't trust myself talking to Scott, but Liam....he seems like someone who Scott has been talking to. You can't take that out of my mind.  We need to exchange tips. And either way... we won't want to be between you and Scott that night all the time, don't you think? :wink:

peter :laughing: good god, do you think I really need that? How pathetic is that? Yeah, I guess you’re right about that. And Vice versa. I mean, despite our circumstances, we are both still... talking. I guess you’re right... sorta a shot in the dark every time, huh? Yeah. I think I’m thinking too much about it and I need to stop, if I want this to be something, anyways. Something as in... something, I have no idea what something could be. Definitely. I’m going to sleep anyways. But what are you going to talk to Liam about, is the question here. Tips about what? Well, I guess you don't, huh? want to be between me and Scott that night. Why does something tell me that Liam might be on the same page as you with that?

monica if it helps your doubts about how much he likes you, then yes. I am willing to do that. pretty much yes first of all I am not going to tell him anything. I am going to go along with the conversation we are going to have. second, tips about patience and friendships. well I definitely don’t. Seriously, trying to remember how this conversation started I don’t even know how we ended up here. I do want to meet scott but you want to hung out with scott more than I do. and also it is the first time we analyzed a crush of yours that much? because Liam is a friend of Scott’s and wants what is best of him? I doubt that they are anything else than friends. And even if they are, we jump off the wagon once I realize that and we are out of the party. worst case scenario please don’t overthink it

peter Ok, ok. That's ok. I trust you, anyways. Just... when it might come to my love life, you know I get a little :face_with_raised_eyebrow: BUT I know you have my best interest in mind, so yes I trust you. I do. Want to hang out with Scott more than you, I mean. I, also, don't know how we got here right now. It is, isn't?? With reason though. I mean, the circumstances here... are very different from what I'm used to. I feel like I'm breaking so many rules here. There isn't exactly a rule against dating a student... I mean, it's not high school - we're all adults. But it's not exactly encouraged either. Scott did say they're friends. I don't have a reason to not trust him on that, so. But if you get vibes... yeah, let me know because I want out. I'll try not to :upside_down: I think I should just try to get some sleep? I've kept you up long enough, anyways. Talk tomorrow?

monica Yeah. You must know that I am always here for you no matter what. But I won't always be able to understand what you are going through. Besides, it just hit me now that you have said it whenever things with James get better, do ask him about how you are in a relationship and he can give you specific advice? Now that you are friends and has already been in a relationship with you? from my experience, I have never had feelings for my student for example anyway. I may say that it is okay to keep those boundaries intact but you are the teacher, you are living this. And you know better i am just here to support you. And definitely calm you down. But for the love of god don't think too much into it sometimes, we all end up doing that. But it is super easy to think negatively so i guess I understand? Yeah let's go to sleep. BOTH of us we both had very emotional days for various reasons

peter I knowww. Same to you! I mean, I certainly haven’t been with someone for 10 years to understand what you are going through. Advice from James? I never thought the day would come. But yeah, I mean, I guess. Whenever I do get into another relationship, I don’t want to make the same mistakes over again. I don’t know if we’re friends though... another day had passed without a word from him. I don’t know, Mon. I really don’t. That’s a first. Yeah, I know. I’ll talk to you tomorrow. Try to get some sleep, yeah? Goodnight.

monica I don't think a lot of people have been in such long relationships without getting married. I mean I am not a bridezilla but it was so weird. HONESTLY, I just called him my fiancè, neither of us had proposed. Things have been sinking in lately and it just makes me so :disappointed_relieved: Anyway, back to you It is not about not making the same mistakes. It is more of a...he knows you well enough to calm you down in these situations. Mostly at least. You won't know what he might tell you that it might click from the very first second with you When we have been talking since I woke up and I might not have helped you at all- just an example Yeah.. let this month pass and if he doesn't send you a message, send him one instead and apologize a bit more? just give it time. I can feel that James is like...the  second guy you are most worried about. Goodnight,love:heart: