Emotion - Phichit/Seung-gil/Christophe : an excerpt from a Yuri!!! on Ice Soulmates Week ficlet by @zjofierose
Phichit can’t remember life without his soulmates in his mind, in his heart.
Neither can Seung-Gil, since he and Phichit are only months apart in age, but Chris can, which Phichit doesn’t like to think about.
Was it lonely, he asked once, were you sad?
Chris just shrugged. “I was a tiny child, cheri,” he answered, “I don’t think I was much of anything yet.” He pulled Phichit close, pressed a kiss to his hair. “I remember becoming aware of you, though, sunshine.” Chris chuckled, making Phichit smile. “Always so happy. Such a ray of light.”
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The truth is that Phichit thinks he would have been a cheerful person anyway; he was, by all accounts, a happy baby - chubby cheeked and laughing, reaching out to everyone he knew for affection and attention. But the truth is also that there are feelings in Phichit’s head that are not his own - one set that is determined and forceful and feels everything so, so deeply; and another that is full of ambition and disappointment, loneliness and hope, ebbing and flowing in circuitous chase.
Being cheerful is almost a form of self-defense, at least at first. Phichit likes to be happy, finds it easy to be happy. And when, at some point, he discovers that he can push those things that he feels outward, well. What else can he do? He wants his soulmates to be happy, too, like he is; and if he can provide that for them, why wouldn’t he?