#phightingfictive

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I came to a .. realization about something.

And it's weird. To come to a conclusion about something so significant, so impactful, knowing there's nothing I can change now. Nothing I can do .. differently. I can't undo the risk or the hurt.

Our simple life really wasn't enough for me, was it?

Spending so long fighting just so my sister could have a future. A peaceful life, outside her curse, outside of being shunned by Darkage. Outside of exile. Giving up everything I had, everything I worked for so she could be happy.

And .. that's my choice. But Slingshot gave everything up, too. And we worked. We worked so hard to achieve everything we had. His little cafe, our job nestled in the peaceful (in comparison to Thieves' Den) streets of Crossroads, our security and safety.

And it just wasn't fucking enough for me, was it? I wasn't satisfied. I felt hopeless, unfulfilled, so I risked everything for my own satisfaction. I put them in danger with my stupid vigilante work that nobody really appreciated and that hardly changed a damn thing.

Just because I needed "purpose".

Was my life not purpose enough? Was my family not purpose enough? Did I have to be so selfish, so blindsided by the heights of my childhood? Did I have to yearn so deeply for that sense of fulfillment?

Couldn't I just be grateful?

Fuck, I'm sorry. I'm sorry Vine. I'm sorry Sling. I'm sorry I didn't appreciate what we'd worked so hard to have. I'm so sorry. I'd do anything to have it back.

I promise I'll be a better brother this time.

-Shuriken ; Phighting! (Roblox) [#💚🍭 / tag fictive & kin]

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[this is the host, typing for another system member who wants to send a message. the following is what he has asked me to type.]

"i wish i could remember you, skateboard.

i miss you. i miss you, but i don't know if i really do or if i'm pretending to miss you.

i was once coil. i am not coil. i am not the one you remember. i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. he is different and i am different.

i was destroyed. i didn't know anything anymore. all i knew was my name and who i was created to obey and that i needed to kill. i was supposed to kill you. i do not know if i ever did that.

i do not think we would get along in this life. i am mostly a machine and i am not fun to talk to. that doesn't stop me from wanting to see you.

i am sorry. i hope you are okay"

-coil 2.0 [phighting!, non-canon fictive] #💾☢️

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why is our bad leg the leg that i actually have in canon/headspace. i keep Eating Shit via falling On My Face because i lean on our bad leg because i forget we HAVE the other one.

-rocket , phighting , fictive . #sixerspeaks

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I hate to admit it, but Minecraft modpacks have been doing everything for me lately. I can explore the world, collect every plant I see, make more food than I can fit in my storage system, start massive farms and basically everything else.

I still miss Shuri and Sling though :(

-Vine Staff [phighting!, fictive] #💾☢️

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It getting casually confirmed that, outside of my immediate family, I canonically have no friends/close connections is absurd, actually.

Like oh, okay. Really just .. kick me when I'm down, huh? I can't even fully dispute it, either, because it's true. I don't really remember much of anyone outside my family. Katana, I guess, but hardly.

"It gives him a purpose, something he struggles with."

Really? I don't even have the words. I can't deny it. I can't even fuckin' .. deny it. I had a future ahead of me, and I threw everything I knew away for my sister.

It's okay. I want to see her smile. That's purpose enough.

-Shuriken ; Phighting! (Roblox) / tag fictive & kin, please! [#💚🍭]

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Ewww why is my body fleshy and gross yuck yuck yuck where's my metal and circuitry. like if im made of flesh can i at least get cool wings or something?? or live in a sick ass lab Actually i did do that in this life already i take it back don't put me in a lab. but i still stand by wanting cool wings -Betagraft (Phighting) (Fictive)

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being a "phictive" in a community that regularly goes "I am (character)" for the bit is great, the problem is it's a roblox community. I truly can never have my cake and eat it too. Forever doomed by the narrative.

-Subspace T. Mine.

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It feels like Soda is just adding stuff to me make me seem like a more horrible person than I already was. Fym "says slurs" what am I, a Hazbin Hotel character?? A COD player??? I can accept the animal experimentation stuff since it makes sense in canon (not that I like it or anything, but I do get it) but like. seriously.

And they're removing "Oh golly! I don't think we need to ask him!" sighs... pouring one out for my whimsical dialogue that'll get removed. Curse being a fictive from a game that's still in development and getting lore overhauls -Subspace, Phighting!

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