When you're in physical pain, your body automatically searches for survival, or perhaps it's just your soul telling your body that you just can't die right now.
When you're in emotional pain, you just want everything to be over and would love to have your soul stripped away from your body to be taken to the place where God is.
What the hell do we really want?
My brain knows what it wants, but has to go through pain to get it, so I guess my brain blocks away the pain with distracting things just to block the reality. But my soul wants to see reality, she wants it, but she's just too attached to a reality that doesn't exist just to avoid the result of the actual reality.
I don't even know anymore.