#phoenixqueenofsilvermoon

[tyrantofthefirmament]

soooo what do you think of allen asking phoenix out on a date? ko didnt seem too keen on the idea

I think it’s silly, but Allen is quite silly and Phoenix will have fun at least. It’s not like they can get into trouble, and if Allen takes her anywhere dangerous, it won’t be nearly as dangerous as me.

He’s already on thin ice after that remark about me neglecting Phoenix. Still... it will be nice for her to go have fun when I really am occupied with other things. I’m not neglecting her though. 

[tyrantofthefirmament]

You apologized for yelling at Phoenix, which was very good and also leader like. Do you think you would also do that for your other followers now?

I doubt it. Phoenix is as close as a Trinemate. It’s a different relationship.

[tyrantofthefirmament]

Do you ever think of marrying Phoenix?

Why.... would I?

What....?

[tyrantofthefirmament]

Do you love yourself more than you love Phoenix?

I.... don’t know. Somehow I don’t think I do....

She’s the best. All the things I usually find foolish - kindness, generosity, trust, she can pull it off. She pulls them off so well that I want to protect that in her, not break it or show her how she’s wrong. Even if she is... She... even loves me.

[tyrantofthefirmament]

She doesn't want you to kill him. Maybe because she knows he's right and he'll actually kill you. Or maybe because she finally got some truth about you and she wants to know more than just what tell her when you're puffing yourself up.

It’s because she’s too nice! Nothing more! She has no idea how dangerous Soundwave is!

And I can kill him!

[tyrantofthefirmament]

Scrapping Soundwave won't erase what Phoenix heard. Or what you did.

It will still help!

[tyrantofthefirmament]

You know it's possible Soundwave has actually played clips of you sniveling and begging for your life for Phoenix. She'd never tell you. Hearing about Megatron from you is one thing, and she'd think you were strong for putting up with him. But if she hears what you actually had to do and say to keep yourself alive? I don't think she could imagine anything so pathetic without hearing it for herself. Maybe he even showed her videos of you on your knees, scraping at his feet.

SHUT UP!!!!!!!

It won’t matter what he did when he’s a pile of scrap metal!

[tyrantofthefirmament]

For the tragic honesty meme - 5 & 6

5. Name someone you want to be friends with even though you know it wouldn’t work out.

There isn’t really anyone I’m interested in being friends with. Except…. I still find myself missing Jetfire, but I don’t know what we would have to say to one another…

6. Have you ever felt so guilty you wanted to punish yourself? Why did you feel guilty?

When… when I was cruel to Phoenix. After I flew away and I was hiding… I wanted… I thought she would want to punish me, but she’s too small. She’d resent it. But at the same time I just wanted her to come find me… She would know what to do.

I have never felt lower and more vile. She was trying to help me and I yelled at her, scared her, and left her all alone. I was no better than Megatron.