Picture in #1.
Picture in #1.
Truthfullly, it feels like day one. It shouldn't be. yesterday should have been my day 1. In my mindset of "there's always tomorrow," I eat a cookie and think "oh, I can always start eating 100% clean tomorrow." Then I go about binging the rest of the day. That's kind of what happened yesterday. It wasn't too bad, but I still ate more than 1200 calories. I know no one CAN read this post, but I would like to just put it out there. I have always lived with intaking less calories than most people. My regular diet at home was quite healthy. I think my downfall was just my lack of movement. I HATED, and mind you i STILL HATE, moving more than necessary. I hated PE, I hated recess. I wish school just went straight to lunch then end of school and just end earlier. I would rather read a book and knit than go out and play. Those few months where I did make a friend and we went out and played, I can't help but think there was a drastic image change. I then met Misun, who had the same mentality about moving. After that it was just game over.
I have to tell the truth. I lost my train of thought because my grandma ordered me to the table for breakfast. It was quite healthy! No meat. A ton of jalapenos and spinach. Spinach porridge. I never had porridge with jalapenos before. Quite delicious actually. 전. With green onions, onions, jalapenos, and zucchini Spinach kimchi. Cucumber kimchi. No meat, but still quite happy.
Going on. Once I got into middle school and high school, I was able to eat whatever I wanted. I was very restricted on junk food as a kid. Always sat there eating half a kiwi that my mom said "I made it look like a hershey kiss." HERSHEY KISS MY ASS. Obviously ass wasn't in my vocabulary back then.... but I would have probably thought that if it was. Then in 8th grade. I realized just how bad it all was. I was in a bad bad position. Since then, there was that constant fight with my weight.
So here's to day 1. I keep throwing out numbers! But this must be done.
Here's to day 1 of my 120 (118?) dream.
Let's hopefully gym it then go snowboarding. Burn extra calories. Sleep hungry. Feel great tomorrow.
By sleeping hungry, meaning lets not try to eat a lot after snowboarding. Let's keep it to the bare minimum.
And the picture? I'm sorry. I forgot to bring my goal bikini home, so I'll start next week. sj115. Don't kill me.