thinking about dad Marcus Pike at Christmas
after your baby's first christmas you decide that you'll be the one to buy the presents (since Marcus's shifts can be long and after two days in a row spending fifteen minutes rushing around the shops before they close, he was tapped out) and that means that he's the one to wrap them and set them up the night before.
you stay up with him after the kids are in bed as he wraps, but soon you're yawning on the sofa and he sends you upstairs with a kiss to the temple and a promise to be up soon.
turns out every year he's just as surprised at how long it takes to keep the christmas magic going. he goes through two rolls of tape, takes careful bites of both biscuits the girls placed out and a sip of the whiskey, dusts "snow" around the tree and uses a pair of old boots to make the footprints.
by the time he makes it upstairs, Marcus can barely lift the covers to climb under them and wrap his body around yours. you ask about the plaster on his thumb when his hand covers your hip and he mumbles something about "that fucking doll house", your soft laughter the last thing he hears before falling asleep.
he gets a few solid hours in before the bedroom door near swings off its hinges and up on the bed jumps your two girls and the dog, shouting and barking and hands patting both of you awake with shouts of christmas.
"do you think he's been?" "has Santa been?" "dad you need to check!" the girls shout until you're pulling them both between you and marcus, peppering kisses across their cheeks that are rounded with excitement. "yeah dad," you catch his eye over their heads, "you need to check."
the three of you wait at the top of the stairs as he makes a big show of checking if Santa's been, your youngest and most dramatic daughter clutching her pyjamas and begging him to hurry up until he finally calls that they must have been very good this year.
their screams. your laughter. ripped wrapping paper. christmas movies on the TV. endless battery changing. one small fight between the girls. breakfast. dinner. more movies.
soon the girls are asleep on one sofa sharing a blanket, the dog on the floor by their side, and you're curled into his chest as a film plays on the TV.
there was one point in his life when Marcus didn't ever think he would be lucky enough to get this kind of life but here he is, his whole world all within arms reach.















