#pillow rambles

[nonchalantpillow]

thank you me for writing about my own selfship, i am literally forgetting everything

[nonchalantpillow]

i have two separate au! for maxim and pillow actually ;; one where he is pretty socially acceptable and another one where he is mean, they both have similar timeline, it's just that the interactions will be a bit different. still, the socially acceptable one is the cannon one in my head, as much as i want maxim to be mean, what he has been through cannonically will probably prevent him from doing that, i just couldn't fully see him as a selfish and depraved person. maybe i should try incorporating elements from one au! into another while still keeping him sensible. we will see.....

[nonchalantpillow]

things keep coming up and the literation of my daydreams cannot be continued :(

[comfystarpjs]

Think my damn laptop charger is broken but its only been playing up since the newest update on my PC...? Not sure if I didnt notice or its some new fuck up?

Urgh im really bad at getting new things for my PC...dont want to have to fix this ffs

[comfystarpjs]

I suck at presenting things...this is a rough try at a family tree for Joe and Shadow. I’m going to try and work on it better tomorrow but idk. I dont like sharing it looking this...messy?confusing? but I wanna share Joe’s heritage cus...idk if anyones interested

Blue lines married - Pink lines non-married Also need to add in Shadow’s kid Kaiya...

(c) Me

In case anyone’s interested Joe comes from the most important of the royal lines. His mother Amitaii had to marry Auster due to traditions, she had three children with him, (Nolee, Pascal and) Flo who would take the crown and go on to have two children (Euston Jr and) Euphemia [Euphie] who took the crown and had her heir Sapphira before losing her husband Vasyl and going on to have another child with a close friend. Sapphira gave up her crown to marry Inferno and so the crown fell to one of the other descendants. (Kelkn, Lelou or Taekn) I havent decided who yet...

Sapphira is Shadow, Blaze and Arkn’s mother so despite her giving up her heritage they still carry ‘royal blood’ but due to their parents death they all have no idea. It just means they have strong ‘magic’ or ‘powers’ due to a ‘strong bloodline’

Not sure what else I could write because I could ramble on forever about these guys...

Thanks if you’ve read this far

[comfystarpjs]

Personal Update

Finally got myself to a doctor, they’ve given me some pills to take for my depression and I need to make an appointment with some therapist. Finally taken a positive step towards being ok and idk I felt pretty good about it afterwards and now I’m trying to keep positive.

I’m doing ok just need to try and keep positive...

[comfystarpjs]

June/July To Do List

Art * Draw Main OC references using base - 28ish / ??? * Study body shapes more - Ish * Study emotions/facial expressions * Draw a ‘big’ detailed picture of some kind * Do a OC reference that isn’t using the base - 1 / ??? * Work on OC story things

Me * See a film / go bowling / do anything fun * Talk to friends at least once for more than 3 hours * Talk to someone new * Go on a date * Take some nice photos * Take my pills * Look into doing a skydive (possibly for RMHC)

Work * Not cry at work * Have a good day at work

Ok so although I made progress in March/Feb/Jan I forgot about this little list and now I’m going to try and do it again!

Done: * Went Bowling - A few times, very fun * Saw a film - New X-Men /  * Talked to a friend lots * Talked to a new person, friend of a friend * Learning how to run shifts at work * Bought a new camera * Saw a doctor for my depression * Kissed someone, didn’t turn into anything but still something * Planned more OC stuff...

[comfystarpjs]

Just wasted a few hours filling out an OC development form for Phoenix... Kept getting distracted and had to over think some things. Cant wait to have the time to do it for most of my OCs as it’s actually helping a lot for what I cant draw for them...