Rambling about my favourute rarepair because i need to ramble 🧡🧡
I like to think Zukabrella/Icerain is akin to those old queer folks you'd meet as a kid without really knowing they were a couple. They act more like roomates with eachother, perhaps just a bit more handsy and cuddly. If they had the option to abandon their work i fully believe they both would, just move off to one of the factions and build themselves a home and stay there. just them.
Their relationship at the start was more professional than anything, there wasnt room for anything to rrally happen. Umbrella was kept to their duties as Firebrands advisor and Zuka as an ambassador for Blackrock. Maybe they meet in passing every now and then but if they ever dared to properly look at eachother Zuka mightve found that Umbrella always seemed to be a little softer around him, and if Umbrella ever slowed down and looked at Zuka just a bit longer they mightve found that Zuka seemes to let his guard down. just a little.
Perhaps when Zuka left Blackrock, Umbrella was never told. And when they'd gone back to see him during a holiday, a rare break for them as Firebrands advisor, theyd find his home empty. Theyd find no trace left of the man they'd finally worked up the courage to ask out. and maybe they'd be upset and angry wih him for leaving and never telling them. Perhaps Zuka knew, and maybe he hated himself for it just as much.
In the end, id like to think in some way, theyd find eachother again, meet at some old coffee shop in Crossroads, hug eachother so tight like just one hug could make up for years of missed time. Perhaps Umbrella would be gentle with him after all this time, smiling at him like hes the sun in their life, and maybe Zuka lets himself relax in their presence like they were never gone, lets himself melt when they cup his face in their hands (which are still impossibly warm after all this time, theyre tougher and more leathery, but they still carry a warmth that Zukas lacked up until then)
They make me ill and this is just a complete word vomit. i hope they make you ill too.
my favourite bugsnak is scoopy banoopy because why wouldnt it be . its literally called fucking scoopy banoopy ??????? hello ?? 11 / 10 name 11 / 10 snak
actually that made me think on it more; do you think neg was trying to come back after rgb woke up again?? i mean-- maybe they were still slightly conscious, bc isn’t rgb partially conscious still when hero’s watching tv?
it would explain why he was freaking out without water and why he had the neg juice and stuff while still conscious... i mean, we haven’t seen that happen before, and it’s pretty clear that something went wrong in his circuits there--
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...but now i have a SECOND theory because i just remembered: even though we’ve seen neg leak before, you know what we also saw?
RGB was overflowing (literally and figuratively) with emotions and it spilled out of his vents right??? and also
i remember someone pointing out that neg looks like they’re crying right here!! so uh, maybe neg’s overflowing too?
one of the things abt tpoh that just fuckin. gets me. is that not only can you see the moment that rgb just decides he’d die for hero, you can see those little moments leading up to it??
like! it’s slow at first, but when they’re in the marketplace especially!! you can just see him thawing out!! and that kills me bc like, it isn’t even said explicitly! but it’s so obvious!!! even just in the way he talks to her!! and his expressions!!!
and you can see right there is kind of just where he decided he’d die for hero!!! like!!! it’s so amazing that just from a few panels you can tell!!!
anyway. tl;dr mod is fuckin great at this and looking thru the pages is an absolute treat for me just because you can watch rgb getting fighting a losing battle as he inevitably gets attached to her
under a cut because this got VERY LONG and VERY RAMBLY
i just wanted to compare this song to tpoh (yes i know it has its own story but that’s not what we’re talking about today)
( if you need to copy-paste: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80sl53M0L6s )
hear me out here because this may seem like a stretch at first but when you see it all down on paper it’ll make more sense I pROMISE--
i’m gonna try and put images in for better readability, so it isn’t just a big ol’ slab of text-- i’m also gonna be skipping lines that i don’t really feel correlate, but most of them do so like. it’s fine lol.
"Don't go across, the longer road's safer, watch as the bolt's trajectory wavers."
RGB talks a lot about detours and taking different paths to throw (presumably) Hate off his tracks, and it makes me think of that!!!!
“Learn it by heart, now the hardest part comes--”
RGB has gone through so many Heroes he’s pretty much learned the cycle by heart, and he’s almost running off a script--
Meanwhile, ‘the hardest part’ makes me think of that line from Suture when he’s breaking it to Hero that she can’t go back!
“--When staggering doubt paralyzes you,”
kind of obvious, but this part goes hand-in-hand with Hero being ‘consumed by doubt’--
“And then, you fall apart like a house of cards, might as well disregard it as a cursory mantra.”
as i said before with the ‘now the hardest part comes’ line, RGB has rehearsed this talk a bunch of times with different heroes so it’s like a ‘cursory mantra’ at this point--
“[ ... ] It's getting harder to act like I don't really care,”
do i even need to say it lol
“I'm sorry but these earnest words of yours are just too much to bear...”
I’m sure i’m not the only one who noticed this but RGB actually does look a little hurt when Hero lashes out at him? anyway he cared a lot more about her in the beginning than he let on
I’m aware of the whole Russian segment in the middle (there’s a translation in the captions as well) but the lyrics don’t really make me think of anything in particular honestly--
the MUSIC CHANGE, however, definitely makes me think of the dream segments and if i WERE to make an amv that would be where I’d put the dream segments
anyway-- that’s all i have to say on that part
“[ ... ] In a desperate attempt to hold onto your battered hand,”
again, not sure i even need to say it, but
“[ ... ] ‘Strong enough to let it go,’ he says, but, darling, I don't know!”
This part makes me think of Hero’s choice to move past RGB betraying her-- but, of course, moving past it ≠ forgiving it, so she’s still mad at him (obviously)
“This isn't my first time sinking lower than the low...”
This isn’t RGB’s first time recruiting a Hero-- and he’s sunk ‘lower than the low’ a LOT, and-- as much as we all love him-- we all pretty much just agree he’s a coward, a liar, a thief, and a petty bastard. Even RGB himself agrees on these points.
It also makes me think of Click’s confrontation-- since it’s pretty obvious he considers RGB stealing their lives away to be ‘sinking lower than the low’.
“How hard can it be to never let it overflow? Oh, I've gotten used to being haunted long ago.”
RGB has expressed-- though nonverbally-- that he still regrets that he let his Heroes died. And like..... ‘how hard can it be to never let it overflow’ is basically his mantra considering how much he bottles up.
He’s also gotten used to generally being disliked-- if not hated-- by almost everyone in TWOMB, and also just to feeling bad about himself (someone PLEASE get this man a therapist)
“[...] Through the haze and through the maw of the grinder, I won't find her, but I'll guide you through them all.”
no deep analysis on this one it just makes me think of when RGB and Hero lost each other in the marketplace lmao
“[ ... ] Now, remember, dear, you've always been too kind!”
Let’s be completely honest here, Hero’s probably the most forgiving out of all of the Heroes, aside from maybe Gladys (and also not counting Dial since we don’t actually know what his real opinion is--)
Click considers her choice to save him ‘too kind’, so, well... you know what happens.
“Oh it's nothing new, the visionless leading the blind; It's easy to say, ‘why don't you leave it all behind?’”
This definitely makes me think of RGB luring people away!! No one who accepted the deal actually knew they’d be unable to return, so they were ‘blind’ to it in a sense!
And as for the ‘why don’t you leave it all behind’ part, well I mean-- you have to admit, the idea of getting away from everything is reallly tempting.
“And this moral compass is forever misaligned...”
Obviously this is about Click because his moral compass is ALMOST right but at the same time completely and utterly fucked, I mean, he tried to kill a child for disagreeing on RGB’s deserved punishment--
“All I need to hear is that you'll be there, by my side-- But you can never know that...”
RGB does end up getting VERY attached to Hero and, I think the very moment he does realize that (fittingly) is when Hero says that he’s not evil or good, but neutral instead (which is sad because that implies this is the best opinion he’s gotten from someone but that’s a whole other can of worms)
Obviously she can ‘never know that’ because what about his PRIDE and he SAID he WOULDN’T GET ATTACHED (...not that it helps because he’s dug his own grave already)
“‘Too strong to die,’ or was that me again?”
This line makes me think of two things-- It makes me think of Time’s comment on him ‘never fully’ being dead, and also makes me think of Negative because... you know. too strong to die.
“I know that there has to be some hope that's just out of sight...”
This part makes me think of the Nothing-- RGB almost loses hope on (at least one of) them surviving twice-- but he came up with solutions! (even though one was completely heartbreaking...)
“...I won't let myself lose it again--”
This feels like it’d be RGB referring to losing Heroes-- he would almost definitely never forgive himself for losing our Hero at this point. It also feels like sort of an internal dialogue to match him throwing Hero towards the fence.
“--And now my only hope is that one day you'll understand...”
This obviously makes me think of him explaining his reasoning behind saving the world in Ex Position-- but it also makes me think of the page just before it transitions to Greenlight?
I haven’t seen anything about this, but that little flashback makes me think that Hero is either, a. thankful to RGB for saving her, or, B. frustrated he chose to sacrifice himself and leave her alone like he did.
“[ ... ] [I’ll] save what's left, though I know that, one day, this weight will come to break my back.”
This makes me think of RGB being afraid to fully connect to Hero at first, because he didn’t want to be hit as hard when she inevitably died, (or would have, if not for the mercy of Protagonist’s Luck--)
“Once again we were left in the dust,”
Hero was left on her own ‘in the dust’ after the storm receded. Not much to say there.
"Self-hating ones like us crack when we betray someone's trust.”
Short version? Please get this telly and his child some therapy.
Long version? In Target Audience, he seemed like he was going to make a (feeble) attempt at explaining Click’s accusation away... until Hero speaks up.
“So if you must, shield your heart with these layers of rust--”
This makes me think of RGB-- but more evidently (especially combined with the next line), the Green Sun.
“The sun will rise-- Until then I'll be waiting for you on the other side...”
Pretty self-explanatory in the first part-- i don’t really have anything for the last part unfortunately though, especially considering we don’t know what actually is going to happen to the sun yet...
but, uh, that’s all! I just. had these thoughts. and wanted to talk about them. because i like writing essays like this.
tysm for reading all this because i absolutely infodumped here
anyway go support Ferry, they’re the artist and their music slaps
ok ONE MORE POST before i sleep because i am thinking abt mustache girl and i’m gonna cry???
like.... mu never wanted to be a villain!! she got hurt by the mafia and made a resolve to take them down so they couldn’t hurt anyone else and YES that grudge went a little too far but she’s still a kid and she acted out of anger and grief!!
she used to just be a normal kid before the mafia came!!! but then they basically kicked everyone off the island and it’s implied that included her grandparents/parents!!
and now she doesn’t even have a roof to live under!!!!!
AND I........ FUCKEN......
EVEN IN THE FINALE SHE DOESN’T WANT TO HAVE EVERYONE LEAVE HER BEHIND!!!
SHE JUST WANTS TO LIVE IN A SAFE PLACE WHERE SHE KNOWS NO ONE CAN HURT HER AND SHE WENT TOO FAR TO CREATE THAT WORLD!!! MU IS JUST A SCARED KID WHO WENT TOO FAR IN TRYING TO PROTECT HERSELF!!
ok anyway i heard this line again and was emotionally devastated by it and the delivery
sorry for ranting i just have a lot of feelings on mu and it’s late at night. i’ma go to sleep now gn
i just got around to watching into the spiderverse and it was actually super good??? i never cared much for superhero movies but i liked this one a lot!!!!
