This hasn't been a linear journey and it never will be. But this is the first time since 2007 that I have been under 300lbs for any significant period of time. And initially, as usual, I gave myself NO credit for putting in the work. I refused to celebrate myself. My inner thoughts continued to beat me down; telling me I was a total failure, not only in weight control, but health, wealth, family, career, spirituality, in every aspect of life, I felt lower than anyone. But GOD!! For the first time when I was in my lowest point, instead of running away from my spirituality, I RAN FULL FORCE TO GOD!! I timidly went home to @spiritandtruthcm, afraid of them seeing the worst of me, but knowing I had to fight my way through the fear. I had to get past what I THOUGHT would be their perception, and show up for STEPHANIE. Of course, my chamily showed me that my fears were unfounded and HOME WILL ALWAYS BE HOME!! ANYHooooo, I'm in a new phase and I'm okay with listening to God and taking charge to get the treatment I need to make the changes that need to happen for this phase to bring what it should.... VICTORY!! #bemetransformed #thankyoufather #thequeensofshine #besavvysassy #plannernirvana (at Warrendale, Detroit, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClEtLt9pMQ9/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
