Is this real?
If becomes harder and harder to realize what's real and what's not. As I stare into her beautiful green eyes I wonder if she realizes how wonderful she is to me. Or how precious our time is together. I feel not worthy of any of the time she's given me, or any of the kind words she said to me How did I get so lucky. ?? I know the saying good things never last, but I hope this lasts as long as it can. Does she know the hardest part of all of this is the fact that I have so many walls built up that I'm scared to take them down in fear that she won't like the me behind the walls. I've tried to be up front with everything but what if I'm not enough ? I know I've never ever been enough in the past but this is different right ? Someone please tell me that this will work ? Even just for a little while. I would so appreciate the positive vibes that she gives off to stay longer, but I understand if I'm not enough.
