This morning, I woke up, and my world was still pseudo-together.
I was alone, and that was different from lately, but okay.
It was cloudy out, and that was a let-down, but okay.
It was cold everywhere in my room, and it made me shiver, but okay.
So, I decided to try getting out of bed without wallowing in pity for thirty minutes... something I've become shockingly good at over the course of the last week. So, I got up, put clothes on, and smoked a bowl. Without crying or crumbling or being so upset I had to interrupt my course of action.
Now I'm going to;
Meditate
Exercise
Shower
Get dressed and cute
Wait.
Then, around noon today, Jay's picking me up and we're going to his mom's for lunch, with Kaden. :).
My goals are to;
Smile
Eat appropriately
Be happy
I think it's doable. I love and miss my big brother so much, and I still feel incomplete... but I feel like it's time to try and piece myself back together. Levi would have wanted me to.
Jack White rocks.