She Who is a Nervous Wreck
Hello all!
Today launches the official start of my wedding planning.
Let me tell you, I am freaking out.
Our date is floating around 2-2-2021 due to finances and such.
I was engaged on 12-12-2019 and so far wedding planning has been nothing but a pipe dream. Lots of Pinterest and ooh that’s pretty.
So many things are running through my mind about this venue visit. My budget sits about 15k, and I just realized that its will never be enough for what’s in my head. I’m afraid that it won’t be as pretty as I have created in my head. Talk about killing my wedding planning “buzz”.
On top of all of all of that, I know we can’t afford a huge crazy budget... it’s just not an option.
But I want to have beautiful photos to remember this event. This pressure falls additionally on top of looking good in my dress and photos. So yeah, my personal image comes up a lot in the back of my head.
I’ve never been a really self conscious person, as I’ve always known I wasn’t a model. I’ve been a confident person most of my life. Everyone always has little things they don’t like about themselves. Getting married has definitely brought up a lot of these thoughts.
I’ve never worried too much about how much my spouse loves me or if I was “skinny” enough for him. I’ve been so fortunate to have someone who loves me unconditionally.
I never really realized how much this would drive how I plan my wedding.
Who else has experienced concerns about weight and pictures during the planning process?