This is it. I have no idea what it's going to be like out there.
N-not that I'm scared or anything. It's exciting, really. Anything could happen.
This is all a very dramatic way of me saying, hi everyone! Everest here (but also, not?), and also, this is my goodbye to you all and this blog. Thank you for everything, and we will hopefully see you in the future <3
...Though, if you *do* want to hear more of why and stuff, it will be under the cut. Fair warning: it's long and also extremely dramatic
It's been seven months since my collective's syscovery and maybe two months since I, the person writing this message, a chaotic Tumblr gremlin who would randomly start the dumbest jokes for no reason and the resident skeptunist enjoyer, stopped feeling like "Everest Gale". What a strange thing to realize, right? To suddenly not relate to the identity that you have so carefully curated and that you have been cherishing so deeply for months and months. But on the other, it makes sense, doesn't it? It's an identity that belonged to someone *we* collectively thought of as "me". Of course as more and more of my headmates have begun to establish themselves as their own people, the less and less sense "Everest Gale" made for *me*.
I was in denial for a while. The exact reasons as to why are a little too personal to be shared publicly, but long story short, it was a combination of some insecurities, some struggles and doubt, and some people - or rather, a certain person - exacerbating my feelings that I *had to* cling to this identity of "Everest Gale", to do otherwise would be to betray people. And yet, all I've been doing this whole time was betraying *myself*.
I'm sure you all have noticed how little this blog has been getting used since our syscovery. And part of the issue was personal issues stacking on top of each other, sure, but another part of it was that it felt *awkward* to do that. The more time went on, the more it felt like a "performance", a show that I wanted to put on, rather than something that came directly from my heart like it had happened in the past. And in hindsight, it makes sense. This is *my* blog, so our headmates felt awkward using it, and yet now it also belongs to someone I no longer am. It feels weird to use when there is this image people have of who "Everest Gale" is, it feels weird to use when everything feels out of place, and it feels weird to use when *I am* not "Everest Gale" anymore. And so, as much as it kind of sucks for me to say, I think I have to let this blog go, along with everything "Everest Gale" related. And this is my goodbye.
...It's very bittersweet for me. I am parting ways with something that once meant so much to me. And in a way, it still does mean so much to me. "Everest Gale" made a lot of mistakes, some of which still haunt me to this day, and yet I can't help but be grateful for the version of us that got us where we are today. "Everest Gale" is how I forced myself to "put myself out there". "Everest Gale" is how I was able to find my joy, my voice and even reach people, when I had so much doubt, in a very confusing time of our life. And "Everest Gale" is how I found some of my closest, dearest friends, the support group that has helped us get through some very rough patches of our life, and who we could support back, the very people who are our foundation for us to finally be able to stand up tall and *breathe*.
Also nothing is getting deleted, for the record. And in fact, I will probably still use this account "for now" to lurk on my friends' blogs from time to time, but there will not be any new posts or reblogs here. It's just going to be an archive, a memoir of someone we used to be not too long ago.
And? What happens next? Who knows, really. Perhaps, when we are ready to make art and post on social media again, we will return to Tumblr and even StP Tumblr, just with a new blog and a new name. Perhaps, we will find a new fandom for us to bunker in and make stuff for. Perhaps, we will finally try making our own original stuff. I don't know, none of us do! Just like the Slay the Princess quote I pulled to start this post with, I'm excited to see where life takes us. Where we might go, what might we find, who might we meet, and what we might make, now that we are no longer shackling ourselves to an identity that doesn’t make sense anymore, now that we know we are *we* and can say so with pride.
Perhaps when that time comes, I will make one more post here, letting people know that we have a new blog. Or maybe we won't, and we will just let people discover ourselves naturally. I can't make any promises right now. "We will see" is the only real answer I have here.
But in any case, thanks for sticking around everyone! Perhaps we will see you all again in the future. But for now, take care everyone, and hope you have a wonderful time <3
I just noticed Kay and Moon tags, aside from EG. Could you tell more about them? About yourself?
No pressure ofc, only if you are comfortable with this! Lots of love, glad to see you again <3
🌿Sure. I'm Kay, and I'm actually the newest member of Summer Polygon, a solid two-and-a-half week old. Well, in terms of self-actualization that is, I'm pretty sure I've been around for a while
But uh, because of that, I don't really know what else can I say about myself. So far, I've been the resident gamer. Slay the Spire 2 is really cool, and everyone should play it, go play it, it's a really good game. Scarlet Hollow is cool too, but I'm definitely less of a roleplayer guy and more of a "see everything and get every achievement" kind of guy
...I was going to describe Moon myself, but then he showed up lmao
🌌...Uh. Hi. I'm Moon. Kay is one annoying fuck (A quote from one of my friends, "Anonymous can testify that Kay is one annoying fuck.").
But anyways, uh. What the fuck do I say about myself? I like drawing with super bright colors. I also like to torment characters, which you can see in this Tabby drawing. And any future drawings too. I like Scarlet Hollow and especially Tabitha a lot. She's a great character, definitely my favorite
Uh. I'm probably the one you're likely to see most often besides Everest (and for now, maybe even more often than Everest). I guess I'm sort of a current co-host. So there you go. Welcome, I guess?
🌿Lmao, thanks for the welcome back. We kind of forgot how to Tumblr, but surely we'll figure it out. We have a pretty sizable backlog of art from both Everest and Moon, so I'm sure they'll be working on slowly sharing that here
As for the competition, we'll see how it goes. There might be a couple drawings in us, but we're not gonna make any promises. This would very well be a "send your child to a competition and abandon them there" moment lmao
But yeah, thanks for the kind words and also for all the glitter
Are you back to doing art in the stp voice art community? Or are you just here for the comp?
💜 Good question! We'd really love to make and post more StP (and now also Scarlet Hollow) art, but life is kind of getting in the way, lots of personal stuff going on that demands our attention, not to mention mental health. The answer is "we'll see", but I'd like to think that the extended hiatus is over, and we'll at least be occasionally lurking and sharing things from now on!
🌌 ...No promises, though. We uh. We have a tendency to put a lot of pressure on ourselves for things like that. But we do have a small backlog of stuff to share, some from way back before our syscovery, and others more recent (in the past few months). So uh. Stay tuned?
