#post your diary

[nonamemeraki]

pages 55&68.

(totally unrelated but when i finished writing that i sparked my lighter and saw for a second this burned man screaming desperately trying to escape the flames. three times after he was still there so i switched lighters & all was ok)*

* all is most definitely NOT ok. i’m seeing the “lighter man” EVERY time i spark a lighter. literally any lighter. his screams are so agonising it’s painful. he’s reaching out for me. he wants to “burn me badly” he says. i swear if this little fucker is the reason i have to stop smoking i’m gunna be so pissed.

22:36

10/6/18

(55&68)

[nonamemeraki]

page 36.

everything is moving, swirling around and moving. even things that are fixed; walls; carpets; heavy furniture.

they aren’t just physically moving out of place. they’re swirling. kinda like when something hits water and it ripples? i’m watching things fall from shelves but they don’t make corresponding sounds when they hit the floor. All the books fell from my top shelf and when they hit the ground it sounded like explosions! that and the scratching on the inside of my head. i can feel it at the back of my eyes and it’s so uncomfortable.

22:39

14/3/18

(36)