hiii i finally read shitoris fate eps<3 spoilers for those + main story hihi
Shitori: (Still, this is quite nostalgic. When I was little, I snuggled up like this with Mother every day.)
this line knowing in msq mikaboshi opens her arms toward shitori and goes 'hm? when u were a child u would have alrdy been hugging me tho?' im unwell
Shitori: It was an Astral who adopted me, a child without a home or family. Mikaboshi was her name, but to everyone else she was a lunatic driven by hatred and obsessed with revenge. I always thought that if they got to know the motherly side of her, they wouldn't say those things anymore. They couldn't say those things if they learned of the woman that saved and raised me—the only mother I've ever known. The mother that I loved most in the world.
Shitori: But Jayne… Mother isn't crazy like everyone says. She teaches me whatever I want to learn and makes me tasty food and sweets. If I do something bad, she gets mad at me, but if I do something good, she tells me I did a good job.
T_^ shitori.................................the way mika talks about shitori too......of she cared..she cared sm.....but also mika teaching shitori things makes me sooooooooo........mika who showed love to shitori....shitori who showed love to mika.....
Jayne: Be that as it may, you don't know when madness will swallow her completely and drive her to harm others. If that puts your life in danger one day, we would be devastated. And if that were to happen, I don't think we would be the only ones to suffer. She would too, if I'm to believe what you've told me.
Shitori: That's why I'm going to stay with her. If I don't, no one else will when she needs help.
Shitori: The more I learned to do things on my own, the more Mother devoted her attention to her own developments and experiments. I knew she was modifying her body so she could stand against the power of the Astrals. It was evident in the way her body often violently trembled and her fits of temper as she became increasingly unstable.
Shitori: Mother's mad thirst for vengeance against her fellow Astrals was finally given form through the completion of the Great Wall. I'll never forget the way she looked the day that nightmarish creation was born. It was as if I were gazing at a feral beast. A howling animal that rejoiced in its thirst for blood, devoid of intelligence and reason. The kind mother that I believed in way nowhere to be found, and my faith crumbled to pieces. Seeing the terrifying weapon she had created, the skydwellers deemed Mother a threat and made attempts on her life. They only succeeded in assembling a massive pile of corpses, their power insignificant against the might of an Astral.
mika unreal hours. lokis lines about her when they talk about changing 'The Astral who ruled over the Nalhegrande Skydom was supposed to be a terrifying monster. Not only was she armed with a weapon that didn't rely on primal beasts, but she was also intent on destroying her fellow Astrals. Or so they said.' augh
Jayne: The Torhid Kingdom wishes to prevent further sacrifices and has already pledged their aid. With disputes breaking out between skydwellers and Astrals, the last thing anyone needs is for it to escalate into a large-scale war.
Shitori: Whispers of a potential outbreak of war spread like wildfire. The creation of Mother's weapon only amplified the chaos, and people began to wonder if she would destroy both skydwellers and Astrals alike.
TORHID MENTION !!!!!!! but also torhid...skull emoji. that said mika being there hating other astrals and building the great wall and this fueling the skydwellers fear of a war (that did end up happening)....
Shitori: You know something, Mother? No matter who you become, you'll always be the person I hold dearest. I love you. Even though I'm sure you don't feel the same way. Nothing's more important to you than your revenge—not me, not even yourself…
i dont think i can do this gamers. 'Goodbye, Shitori. No matter what happens, you'll always be my beloved daughter.' (in tears) shitori addresses these feelings later but her feeling that way in that moment when shitori was always important to mikaboshi..T_T
Shitori: Mother raised me. More than that, however, she gave me love when no one else would. Helping with the seal would mean betraying everything that I owed her. But I couldn't continue to turn a blind eye to all the victims of her rage and wait for things to settle. More pressingly, Mother's body was falling apart, and her mind and soul were fracturing as she bathed in more and more blood. I became certain that, sooner rather than later, she would break if something wasn't done.
Shitori: All I could see was her face, moments before the end, seared into my mind. Her eyes filled with hatred, anger, confusion, then despair.
thinks about the scene when the second seal is broken. RAUGH.
Shitori: She proceeded to reveal a bit of her own past to me for the first time. "You reminded me of myself, so I took you in out of pity." That was why she raised me, according to those words. It was painful to hear her admit as much—that there was nothing else binding us together besides sympathy for our shared circumstances. But upon seeing my dejected expression, Mother gave a troubled smile and gently pulled me into a hug. Then she told me, "Shitori, you're my dearest daughter, and I would have no one else but you. I love you."
MOMBOSHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
thinking about playable mika with fate eps that mirrors shitoris makes me dizzy. shitoris 5* is gonna be amazing if its set after act3 too <-no hint of shitori 5* on the horizon
Shitori: I really believed… that nothing mattered to Mother other than her revenge—not me, not even herself. But I couldn't have been more wrong. Do you know how she looked at me, right before the end? Her eyes, filled with despair, screamed "why?". And it finally hit me: I did this! I betrayed her! No matter how she changed, she always thought of me as her daughter until the very end! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Mother!
Shitori: Still, I resolved to stay by her side, so that at the very least she wouldn't be alone when she woke. That was why I chose to be sealed alongside her.
Shitori: (This might just be me being selfish, but I'd like the chance to apologize directly one day. For now, all I can do is apologize in my head. I'm sorry, Mother. I love you so much, and I always will.)
last one makes me ill cuz of this one loki & mika convo before the seals broken
Mika: If they meet each other… and Shitori say she's very sorry… will she stop crying forever?
Loki: Oh, definitely. It must be painful to feel all that guilt but have no one to apologize to.
Loki suddenly gets a distant look in his eyes, as if recalling a memory.
ill get into lokis emo self at another date but mika...T_T
Shitori: I was fully prepared to die by Mother's hand upon our awakening. But I desperately hoped that I'd be able to apologize before the final blow. With that last wish etched into my heart, I drifted into a long slumber.
u kno what also makes me so upset. when io mentions shitori when they meet mika at bestia islands, and mika uses 'daughter' to speak of shitori. 'dont mention that...that daughter of mine' or whatever.......T_T shitoris her daughter thats her kid her child her
Mika: I found Shitori crying for her mom in her sleep one day. It made me think… me and Shitori have our own real moms, don't we? It doesn't matter to me, since I don't have any memories and I'm happy with Shitori. But Shitori probably doesn't feel the same way. Maybe she wants to leave here… and find her mom.
Vyrn: I got a question though. How can she miss her mom if she doesn't remember her?
Mika: I already asked everyone else about that. They said even if her mind doesn't remember, her heart does.
Lyria: Maybe we'll even find your mom and dad too…
Mika: My mom and dad? No, that's not what I…
THIS CONVERSATION................her heart remembers..........mika and her parents...mika and astral society...mika who picked up shitori cuz she reminded her of her own situation...mika who wants shitori to be happy......shitori is faking amnesia but mikaboshis heart.....
Blessed One: We have plenty of Astrals here in case it fails, but…
Blessed One: You truly believe we'd stand a chance against her hatred? She could easily destroy the entirety of the Edgelands.
Blessed One: Then we must strike before she has the opportunity to. It's prudent we take advantage of her child-like state and end her immediately, as our final mission commands us to do.
lov ppl being scared of mikaboshi
Mikaboshi never hid the fact that she was an Asral, leaving skydwellers to regard her warily, while the madness stemming from her hatred toward other Astrals was impossible to ignore.
mika astral hater boshi !!! girlie who built the great wall !!! girlie who put echidna on bestia island went hehe astrals struggle against otherworldly beings (it backfires) oh no! shes my everything
Shitori: You're asking me to betray Mother… No, I don't care what happens to this world. I just want to be with Mother.
Jayne: My poor Shitori… Forever bound to her, forever bound to misery… I'll never forgive the monster who took your happiness away from you!
'When I accepted my fate to be sealed together with Shitori following her betrayal, the monster in me died and I became a mother' ill
Mika: I-I'd never hate you either! No matter what bad things you've done, I'll never hate you!
Mika: What about you, Shitori? Would you hate me if I was a bad person?
Mika's anxious words stop Shitori's breath for a split second.
Shitori: Never. No matter what bad things you've done, I'd never hate you.
anyway going through these & hearing shitoris suffering knowing her future in one timeline is to watch everyone die & leave it together with a dying lyria thanks to ebisu & some voice telling her to keep going. and then crying nonstop while apologizing. preparing papers & ids so we can enter oarlyegrande even before eugen was born. dude she has gone through so much..........i cant write an entire post about it rn but shitori.........
main story lines but i think about these smT_^
Mikaboshi: Because I also knew the reason you betrayed me. You did what you did for my sake, not for anyone else. You even went so far as to sacrifice yourself… It was the first time anyone had gone to such lenghts for me. I felt blessed, even if your actions were a betrayal. And I did confront you at one point to hear your thoughts on that…
Mikaboshi: You're an amazing person, Shitori… It wasn't some skydweller plot that stopped a monster from destroying her own kind… No… It was all you. To know that you cared for me meant so much. It was your love that saved Nalhegrande, and me as well. That's why I know you can do this, Shitori. You can even save the world if you set your mind to it.
'Leaving something behind as a parent might not be such a bad thing after all.' T____^ mikaboshi.....
