FOMO
Fear of missing out. Yes this is a term that learned from the amazing comedy central tv show #Broad city. But i loved this term because it finally gave me a word for someone like me , as well as other people like me. We’re fomo’s. People who absolutely hate the feeling of missing out. In your 20′s theres plenty of times where your friends will be out at a bar or some concert or generally having a good time somewhere you aren’t. Maybe you’re conflicted and you actually do want to stay home and you just want other to do the same so you know you wont miss out on anything. Or maybe you’re like me and find yourself socially awkward and find it hard to just get out there and have a good time. Whenever this happens to me theres only one place for me to be. Anywhere but my room. Yea, basically ill just walk around outside and the very fact that im out there will make me feel a little better. If that doesnt do it then I’ll go to my local bar. The only reason why thats an option is because my friends and I have gone there enough that its not weird if I go alone. the bartenders wont see me as some guy who depressed and came in to be around people. Right now my LDSO, (long distance significant other) , which is a whole other story by itself, is at a party , currently on her way to a second party. These things always make me uncomfortable because Im in a constant state of fear of being fucked over. History has made me untrusting of people. To be honest its never happened to me but im always afraid of being a victim of “i was drunk, it was a stupid mistake, im sorry”. I never want to be told these words. But i guess im that guy that is whether I want to be or not. I’m also a very envious person, if someone i know is out there having a blast and im in here. I just hate myself. I’ll hate myself for not being a more outgoing person. But anyway, thats where im at. So right now I hit up a friend and we’re going back to the bar. We’ve been going there alot lately. I have to feel like I did something tonight other than play video games.