“Stop! Just stop trying to do all the right things! It’s too much!” ( from jiangxiongdi and Jiang Cheng of course *hides now*)
“other ways to say I love you” starters || @jiangxiongdi
Since the fall of Lotus Pier, their relationship had never been the same.
Why do you always have to be the hero!? Why do you have to save Jin Zixuan and Lan Wangji? Why couldn’t you just let them die and forget about it! The splatter of rain against his tear-stained cheeks and the strong, emotional, grip of Jiang Cheng’s fingers around his neck that day had failed to disentangle themselves from his memory. Wei Wuxian isn’t a sentimental fool, but when accused to be responsible for such heinous crimes by someone he loved and trusted as an equal, it would become a lingering foreshadow at the back of his head for as long as he lived. Yet, his mind registered Jiang Cheng’s words in a different manner. If you could save Jin Zixuan and Lan Wangji, then why couldn’t you save Jiang Fengmian and Yu Ziyuan? When it comes to filial duty, who is it who raised you? When it comes to family, who are the people you call your kin? Is this how you repay someone who showed you unconditional kindness throughout your life!?
There was a time these dark thoughts would have evaporated within a few days, but this time they nipped and licked at his heart during ungodly hours of countless nights. Wei Wuxian felt tired inside out. Not at Jiang Cheng, not at himself, but at everything else that happened around them. Whenever Jiang Cheng visited, he finds himself unable to turn his back to face him chest to chest. Whenever Jiang Cheng tells him to look at him in the eye, he finds eyes looking at everything but his eyes. Was this guilt? Or was it the inception of their breaking relationship? Wei Wuxian couldn’t tell. For some time now, he’s begun to confuse himself about what’s right or wrong. But life goes on and there was nothing he could do about it.
❝Didn’t we talk about this before? There is all there is. If you aren’t willing to help me, then don’t stop me.❞ the words left his lips unwillingly; in the past, he took pride to say such things, but now they were from duty rather than out of will. ❝Take it as self-punishment. Your mother instructed me to guard you with my life. I fulfilled that promise. You are safe now. However, there are still some things I will never be able to forget in my life. You will always be my brother, in this life and the next. If you needed help, I will always come to you. But, don’t make me have to live guiltily, Jiang Cheng, please—❞
