#presentation talk

[brynnmclean]

All y'all who are binding in this heat-death summer, I feel you. Drink water, darlings, and remember to give your ribs a break when you're uncomfortable/start feeling pain. I love you. ❤️

[brynnmclean]

I bought these colored resin rings that look like sea glass recently-- four of them: red, blue, green, and white. I've been switching them as sort of a method of flagging some gender feelings and it turns out white generally means, too tired to put on a gender today.

[brynnmclean]

I dressed up really nice today to hide the fact that I feel like I got hit by a truck and could lay on my office floor for the rest of the year

[brynnmclean]

before I retreat back into my quiet corner though, I just want to say from me to me:

please remember that gender presentation stuff shifts and you've been not feeling like putting on lipstick for months, so stop putting it on in the mornings like you were in spring/early summer because you know you're just going to wipe it off before 10am???? Kate. Come on.

[brynnmclean]

I put on this navy blue lace flower kind of top on this morning and red lipstick and my hair is a big curly thing I'm usually fine with

but today in practice I wish I were wearing a binder and a suit and had my undercut fixed up

[brynnmclean]

Re: binding, but not-- would a sports compression tank help? I'm so sorry that you're feeling uncomfortable! -- KyberChronicles

Thank you!  That’s a good suggestion. Someone else also mentioned bralettes which I might also look into.

[brynnmclean]

I stopped wearing bras recently, (feel like I mentioned that before), and it's fine, I think I've mananged to avoid headlights at work and I'm an A cup so it doesn't really matter too much and everything, but one of the problems is now I want to bind really, really badly and that's... definitely not an option. If sports bras are bothering me, there is no freaking way I should put on a binder.

Most of the time, it's fine and I can ignore my chest no problem (helped along by the lack of anything touching my chest), but other times, I just...

I talked to my sister a little bit about it this weekend and she was like, I don't understand, you're small enough, it's probably not even a noticeable difference + binding sounds uncomfortable, and that has been kind of sticking in my head a bit this week. I don't know what to do except... wait it out? Keep giving my ribs a break until maybe I can bind for a couple hours without pain? Idk.

[brynnmclean]

sports bra is off and I'm about to eat lunch though I maintain that having a body is BULLSHIT and I'd like to be a sentient patch of haze instead