#pretendsleep

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Q: Well what have I done all weekend?

A: Obsessed over this paper only to probably get a B. 

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Ok so my accompanist is the best. He won't be able to make it for my recital this Wednesday so he got a replacement for me when I was going to do it myself and I didn't expect him to. He gave him the music, and he'll give me the contact info all while he's getting ready to fly many miles away to attend to a family emergency and I'm so thankful for him!!!!! This is why I hire him and will always hire him. (Especially since he puts up with my last minute changes, sometimes diva behavior, and my unsure and unprepared moments). He's the best!

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I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! DO I GET THE NEW GENDER SWAPPED TWILIGHT BOOK OR NOT???? I HATE TWILIGHT BUT I LOVE IT YA FEEL ME???

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Yep. I miss being vegan. I think I will be converting soon.

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AMC’S HUMANS

I just got around to watching the season finale of AMC’s Humans (I’m late but I had a ton of things going on) and my brother and I have theorized some crazy stuff. So we know that Laura had a brother who died by being hit by a car but for some reason we can’t  leave it at that. So we were thinking what if Tom was/is Leo. Does that make sense? I don’t think that Tom is just a character in Laura’s past. There has to be something more. There is no logical reason why but it’s just a theory and a feeling. We can’t let it go!!! What if Tom is Leo???!! That would be crazy!!!

[thelegendofapples]

Of all the things I have ever been certain of…this is it. I have been caught in the storm for years and years. I had no way of coming out of it and I had my plans demolished and broken down before they could even begin. I’ve cried to You many times and asked, “How much suffering does one person have to take before they can actually be happy. Why can’t I be happy?” I’ve given up on my dreams so that I can live the life You planned for me. I’ve caused pain and I have been in pain but through You I have learned to slowly and quietly forgive myself. I know that I have survived the worst. I still can’t believe I’m here. It is by Your grace that everything is the same but everything feels so different. I know that this is what You want for me. I know that everything You did was for a reason. I challenged You and You challenged me. I made countless mistakes and have always come back to You. I am a firm believer that all of the events that lead me here were Your doing to make me a better and stronger person than I thought I could ever be. I feel new. I feel different, humble, happy and at peace. You did that. I don’t feel as bitter or angry. I am overwhelmed by how much You have done for me and how much You have blessed me in my life ….even when I couldn’t see it. I don’t know what You are doing and I can’t imagine what Your plans are for me. But You are my God and I trust You. I will never be the same anymore. You have given me new life.

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Person: [unfollows]

Me: Man, why y'all gotta hate.

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Sometimes I wish Google could answer my life’s questions.