Maybe some Isler angst about him feeling guilty for not going to the wedding but atbtee same time knwoing that he couldn’t sit through watching Dwayne marry someone else
isler has definitely let himself indulge in a bit of fantasizing, in the past. when it’s late at night and he’d just spent some time with dwayne (and the team) at the bar and he was reminded again of the SPARKS he feels with dwayne. sparks that he ignored when they first met because he saw dwayne as this rule-breaker who was going to fuck everything up, but now, isler is possibly a better man having known him.
he’d fantasize about THEIR wedding. it’s little kid shit, but isler can’t help it. they’d have it in new orleans, of course. and he’d let dwayne decide where to have it and what kind of wedding it would be and who would be there. it’s not like isler has many friends or close family - but he’d definitely inherit some after marrying dwayne. and that thought has always warmed him.
but receiving the wedding invitation to dwayne and rita’s wedding is like a cold splash of water to that warm fantasy. of course, dwayne would invite isler. they were friends. isler should be HAPPY that dwayne wants him there. he knows he’s not the friendliest or most open person ever.
part of him wants to go. to support the man who’s supported him so much these last few years. to see him blindingly happy and in love and about to start a new happy chapter in his otherwise violent and chaotic life.
but he can’t.
isler gives some bullshit excuse. something about his mother and he could tell dwayne was upset. he even tried to help isler with his imaginary problem - anything to get him to attend. that made him feel all the more guilty, but isler knew he couldnt go to that wedding.
not when rita was standing in the place that isler had been imagining for years.
