#prissystoner

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Meet my new baby💚

[prissystoner]

Seriously I hate confrontations

But I can't ignore this. If I ignore it, it will continue to happen and I can't have that. I'm better than that. I deserve better than that. But what it doesn't stop. What if it continues. I don't want to loose him. I'm falling in love. I know he's good. And I know we can be good, we ARE good, I just. I don't know. I wish I knew why. But at the same time I don't..

[prissystoner]

Maybe I'm just tripping

Maybe when you said we were good you meant it. Maybe everything is fine you just need some space, maybe I'm just tripping myself out but how can I know if you won't talk to me. That's all I want, for you to talk to me. Let me know what's going on. Tell me what you need from me. I can't do this wondering shit. My mind runs wild, I'm in such a terrible funk, I don't know what to do.

[prissystoner]

I don't get why this seems to keep happening...

Everything always start off great, wonderful even. But then one day everything is different, and that’s what I can’t deal with. That’s what I don’t understand, the different. Why did things have to change? I’m not strong enough to deal with it, I never have been. I don’t know what to do.

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It’s not goodbye, it’s I’ll see you soon

”If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.” 

I could not have asked for a better bestfriend, the perfect partner in crime, and my other half. I’m so grateful to have bonded and grow our 10 year friendship into what it is now, and I know we’re still going to be the best of friends, that nothing is going to change that. I know we’re still going to talk all the time and we’re always just a text or phone call away. I know that we can skype each other all the time and smoke bowls together via skype. I know things aren’t going to change, the only that’s changing is the distance. It’s just going to get some getting used to.

I’ve loved spending basically every day if not every day with you, pretty much the past 5/6 years. And I’m so grateful to have created such an amazing bond with someone, and grateful for absolutely everything you have helped with me, and through all these years. I honestly believe I would be lost without you, especially the past two years with everything that’s been going on. Thank you for always having my back and always being there for me no matter what.

I know we’re forever going to be in each others life, and I know you’ll be back. I can’t wait to see you again, and I know we’ll see each plenty while you’re gone. We’re Nat and Meg, we make anything we want happen. 

You’ve made all my favorite memories even the more special, and I love you so so much. I wish more than anything I could keep you here with me, but I know you’ll be back. I wish you all the best of luck out there and I know you will have tons of amazing adventures. You will forever be my bestfriend, and no one could ever compare to you, or our friendship. I feel so incredible blessed to have you in my life, you are without a doubt my other half. 

Come home to me soon<ost

“You can count on me like 1, 2, 3, I’ll be there and I know when I need it I can count on you like 4, 3, 2 and you’ll be there 'cause that’s what friends are supposed to do”

[prissystoner]

There's no way I can go back to sleep after that....

I'm having the worst panic attack I think I've ever had. I can't stop crying and there's def no way I can go back to sleep now. Not knowing you're about to be roaming the streets again.... Whyyyy, I was just starting to feel safe again😔

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I hate you. I hate you so much.

Why couldn't you of just left me alone, why did you have to go to such drastic measures. Why are you continuing to do this to me. What the fuck is going through your mind? You can't possibly think this is okay, that this is the way to keep me in your life? No.

You put me through so much. You're PUTTING me through so much. I just want this to stop.

But of course you keep keeping at it. I'm so unhappy lately. I'm so sad. I just want you to leave me alone.

I've had enough. I'm standing up for myself. I didn't want things to have to get to where they are, but you brought this on yourself. You're going to get whats coming to you.

[prissystoner]

I know it's coming and I literally can't do a thing about it

And it's killing me inside. I can't be patient anymore. I know what you're going to say most likely, and I know there's probably nothing I can do to change it/your mind and I can't stand it. I don't know what I did. I don't know why this is happening. I just want to be with you. Everything seemed like such a fairytale in the beginning. It's only been such a short while, you barely gave it a shot. Please don't do this. Please don't leave me.