#private exchanges.

[enlightenedlalonde]

[pvt.]

...I apologize for being overbearing, but you're not ignoring me now, right? 

[enlightenedlalonde]

...I won't make you discuss any of this, but I'm here if you need anything, okay? 

[enlightenedlalonde]

[pvt.]

Simon, please. 

[enlightenedlalonde]

It got worse Chris. 

[enlightenedlalonde]

[enlightenedlalonde]

CHRIS.

[enlightenedlalonde]

[pvt].

doorcheck replied to your post “What’s going on?”

roxy sent the flowers and bro said he hadnt been telling me everything and its all hitting me at once i

Okay, so Roxy wants you to think of it as a red string of fate, and that's her goodbye. She's giving you closure. That's a good thing. Now you two can part ways, with closure. 

As for your brother, just breathe. You knew he wasn't entirely honest about everything, so this is really just confirming suspicions, isn't it? Just take deep breaths, he'll tell you in time. 

[enlightenedlalonde]

“♥♥”

6. A confession

-- PRIVATE --

I have a knack for falling in love with people I cannot have the way I dream. I think that is why I'm dreaming of two people these days.

The first, there simply seems to be no place for me in his life. I wonder why I bother -- he means so much to me, yet I seem to mean so little to him. 

The second is everything I've ever wanted, but he cannot be mine alone. He's too perfect, I couldn't stand sharing him, I couldn't stand the idea of not being the only thing on his mind. I can hardly stand it now. 

But I've come to accept that I'm stuck, emotionally. I will be whatever my current boyfriend, the first, needs of me, because reaching for happiness is simply too much effort these days.