Does anyone else have this slight constant anxiety about people not liking you anymore? Like you feel like you’re not doing enough to be a proper friend, or internet buddy, or something. And you feel like you’ll be left behind because you’re just not doing enough? Or you’re just not enough as a person? But don’t have the energy to do much anyways… or be a better person… I don’t know. I just always have this feeling. I’m not enough. And people will eventually realize I’m this person who doesn’t give enough… and it’s constant. It’s draining. I push myself to reach out more so no one will forget me because I genuinely love all the people I interact with in any sort of way and I don’t want them to forget me. But I’m just not enough… and struggle to have energy to keep it up. Then I’m forgotten and I have his intense sadness but I know it’s all my fault anyway for not giving enough… and I can’t blame people if they move on. I don’t ever blame anyone. It’s always my fault. That makes it feel so much worse though.
Maybe I just overthink everything… and it’s not that big of a deal…
Anyway… sorry for my ramblings.