#probablydoesntmakesense

[anonymoustweet-blog1]

Back Again

Ok so now onto the second part of the story, Lucy, Anna, and Ryan will become big parts of the story. Especially Ryan. 

Ryan and I talked a lot, at first I wouldn’t let him know who I was and once he found out we still didn’t talk in person. Ryan told me about his crushes and how he thought they were really hot and how we just wanted to be with them and that did hurt quite a bit because he knew that I liked him. Ryan isn’t a bad guy at all Ryan is amazing but I think sometimes he can forget that other people have feelings too, which we all do but a lot of the time he would talk about his life and I was so happy for him but just because of the person I am, I didn’t want to tell him about mine just because his was so great and I didn’t want to ruin it you know? I think that’s always been a hard part in my life, I struggle to open up to others yet I know I should because it will help with my emotions. Anyways Ryan and I always talked like 24/7 and Lucy, Anna and I became closer in a way but we also started to get into small petty arguments a lot of the time. Then something weird happened that I’ve never really understood... Ryan had once told me how he had kissed a girl at a New Years party and that now all of new year girls friends where ganging up on him and some of them went to Towns College. One of my friends Lucy, was friends with a girl (Tayla) who knew new years girl, I know confusing right? Lucy and Tayla played netball together and they started talking about new years girl. So Lucy being my friend told me and I said I already knew lol but then that night Ryan told me that some of new year girls friends (like Tayla) had taken photos of him during the day and so I told Ryan about what I had been told and Ryan knew Tayla and hated her. Now I thought that new year girl liked Ryan so I said to Ryan I bet she likes you and then Tayla told me to stop talking to Ryan cause of all the drama I was causing and I was so pissed and so at school I told Anna about it and Lucy started getting real angus and I had no idea why. Anyways that was when my friendship with Lucy started getting rocky. I’m so sorry if none of that made sense... like I said before I’m a shit writer lol. 

So I ended up not really enjoying my time with Lucy and Anna and it didn’t help that they where in my English, Social Studies and Science class just because of drama that had been happening and I thought it was time I should make some new friends or at least newish. So I decided to hang out with Hannah, Tasha and Sammy. Now the silly mistake I made was being friends with Tasha because Tasha was friends with Lucy. For a long time life was pretty good, I was slacking off a bit in class but my social life was great I finally felt like I had settled into a new school but I didn’t know what was to come...

Anyways that’ll be it for today. If none of that made sense please tell me cause I’ll be happy to try and explain!

[krisisstellar-blog]

Nights like these where I’m wide awake with so much drive and ambition when it comes to joining the Navy but here Iam feeling like shit about myself, convincing myself I could never do it and would never get to the point of physical comfortability where I believe I could do it. #motomotogotnomotivation

[reverseofhostility-blog]

SORRY.

Sorry I'm a terrible human being who gets scared when people get closer to me, I feel like when they finally see what kind of person I am underneath this happy charade, they'll run away.

[dreamingswhatid0]

Some people take things so personally and think themselves into bitterness and don't know how to get out. The wound keeps getting ripped back open from anger and cannot heal. People suck but sometimes you just have be the bigger person and forgive and move on with respect.

[the-meganfastgirl]

Unbroken

So I just got done running 6 mi threshold run on the treadmill @ 8 PM, after I went to "Unbroken" and ate a burger..guess how that went?😂 Well I felt like throwing up the whole time but I still managed to hold a 7:30 pace😬. Anyway Unbroken totally inspired me to be a lot more mental tough and during this run that's what I kept thinking about, "You gotta be mental tough Meg" Yeah so I recommend going to Unbroken(even though I might've cried through like the whole thing).

[make-it-your-own]

Unsure

When your boyfriends mum makes her sons breakfast and does everything for them when they're at home. And treats the gf like a slave or just an extra lingering around her house. Fuck you sick of this shit. Does she have something against me? I understand that she loves her kids but come on they're 21 and 19 let them put their own shit away they're not babies ffs

[cheeselake-blog]

I get deep at night - a poem by a nobody

Cold nights with open windows Eyes closed still awake One mistake ultima Thule Talking without words Feels good being you Feels good hating you Absens haeres non erit - that's what bandage on

[bliindside]

Sometimes I get a little sick of  people who are negative towards everyone and everything all the time.  Sure life isn't easy but hell at least try to enjoy those little things that happen, if someone wants to talk about why you're upset, talk to them and don't just block them out as if they don't care because they do.