ok so background i come from a very religous family and like some of my extended fam is homophobic/transphobic and in addition im in this charismatic worship group that’s also homophobic/transphobic AND OMFG
SO THIS LORNING ME AND MY DAD WERE TALKING ABOUT HOOTY FROM THE OWL HOUSR (TOH) AND MY DAD WAS LIKE “wait is hooty a he?? is hooty he she it??? it’s fine if hootys a she” or smth AND IM LIKE “i think hootys a guy” WHILE TRYING NOT TO LIKE EXPLODE LIKE WODJRJJSF (btw hooty is he/him)
AND THEN JUST A BIT AGO WE WERE WATCHING AND EPISODE WITH RAINE WHOS NON BINARY AND LIKE MY SISTER HAS GROWN UP WOTH TONS OF NON GENDER BINARY CONFORMING EXAMPLES IN THE MEDIA AND IM SO HAPPY FOR HER LIKE SHELL SEE A NON BINSRY CHARACTER IN TV AND BE LIKE “DADDY DID U HEAR THAT THEY THEM” AND LIKE SKDJJFG BUT LIKE ME AND MY SISTER HAVE BEEN LIKE KEEPING MY DAD UP WITH THE GENDER THINGS LIKE WHEN HER NISS GENDERS CHSRACTERS AND STUFF AND TODAY IT ALL PAYED PFF CUZ WE WERE TALKING ABT HOW LIKE ALL THE CHARACTERS OF TOH R LIKE FUCKING UNWELL MENTALLY AND HE WAS LIKE “can’t she (eda) see they’re not ok” AND IN JUST LIKE WORJHDIFIF AJD TRYING NOT TO CRY SND THENN AND THENN HES LIKE “… he they…” AND I AM INTERNALLY CRYING MENTALLY I AM NOT HERE I AM PN THE FROUND CRYING SEND HELP LIKE OKFG LIFE IS FINALLY GOOD
but then i went from gender euphoria to panic attack like that so slight improvement but a win is a win