Its the end of an era
For those of you who have been with me for the whole, 10 year ride or those who have no clue what im talking about, I must say, im tired. I, Dyslxeian, now OceanBunny, or isopod-girl-antenna, have posted a singular letter h on at first out subreddit, then, after the reddit blackout, on this tumblr page, once a day for the past 10 years. And today, I am putting my mantle to rest. I haven't been as consistent at all the past little while, and I feel like im unable to continue, not because things have gotten difficult, but because they've gotten so good.
All those years ago, I was just a redditor in high school, who had nothing going on and really felt no purpose for anything. I know it's silly, but at the time, this sorta felt like a purpose. Something that was expected of me, that people would look forward to, and I kept a culture going. I thoroughly enjoy all the friends I've made in doing this over the past 10 years, and the place it brought me without this, i wouldn't have ended up on Tumblr, and without that, i may not have met all the people here i care about so much. But in the past year, I realized I dont need to be posting this anymore. I have found purpose beyond something like this. I have found people who i care more about than anything else, who I spend a lot of my time with while also bettering my own life. Confronting my childhood trauma, medicating my ADHD and Depression so I can go a day without sulking, and furthering my transition to a point im really happy with.
It's funny to think about the "boy" who started this. Scared of the world and what it has done to her. Too terrified to see what she enjoys in the world and unable to do much of anything for true enjoyment, instead chasing whatever distractions she could. I'm so thankful I could wander into Project Boom and find a place where I could at least be free to do whatever I wanted. It helped set me free. Now I'm rambling and have been for a while, but I want to thank everyone who got me here, I'm happy to have gotten here, and I couldn't have without the community.
h.
