Don't Say You Love Me
It was the first time we've been alone after reuniting in the wasteland and of course we had to be trapped in Boston General Hospital we slipped into the operating room hearing raiders shouting and stomping inside, it hadn't been long before they left so we went to leave but the door was jammed shut so we have to wait it out Aspen will find us once she's done but we would have to wait for who knows how long.
Sighing I got down from the spot on the operating table, moving to some filing cabinets, going through each draw most had patient records in them squatting down to look though the bottom draw finding an old silver locket placing it into my pocket spotting an old familiar name on the folder Grandfather opening the folder smiling at the picture of him quickly skimming though the file before carefully ripping around his picture and pocketing it as well.
"Lilith?" my 'companion' if you could even call him that called out, standing up straight, I turned around to face him despite the fact he was a ghoul now he is still just as handsome as the last time I saw him, my heart squeezed at the memory of the last time we saw each other before total nuclear annihilation.
"I can't love you like that"
Those words echoing in my head even though that was the night before I left New York for good becoming Ella's mother and John's wife despite it all being all fake.
"We need to talk about the night before you left after becoming apart of Project Mockingbird" he stated, I shook my head
"Don't Say You Love Me, not now" I told him, hurt appeared in his eyes but he tried to hide it with anger
"Why cause I look like this now, Lost my looks" He snapped, I felt anger bubble in me, once a upon I would just bottle it up to be the perfect women and daughter 'never show those emotions' but now I just let it out.
"Do you really think I'm that FUCKING swallow?!? This has nothing to do with you being a Ghoul this has to do with you being a fucking coward! my parents disowned me when I became a paramedic yet you fucking claimed that you can't love me like that because you were my bodyguard" I closed my eyes taking in a deep breath opening my eyes once more shaking my head
"I finally have some information on who killed John and took his little girl yeah I may not be Ella's biological mother but I'm the only thing from her old life and I will go to the ends of the earth to find her, Jae-Bong" I informed him, uttering his actual name.
"Hey Lilith, Jay you guys in there?" Aspen's voice called out from the operation room door
"Yes! We are Aspen!" I called out, I heard something being moved out of the way of the door
"but also Jay don't say you love me cause right now it still hurts from that night" I whispered to him before Aspen opened the doors finally allowing us out of the room, allowing the half ghoul lead us out back into the wasteland in complete silence.