protectorateandcircuit replied to your post:HELP I JUST GOT A REALLY PAINFUL FINGON HEADCANON
So I'm writing this story with the-disposessed about Findekáno's rescue of Maitimo from the mountains outside Thangorodrim, right?
And I really started thinking about why he was going to Angamando in the first place.
Like, the in-text reason is that he wanted to mend the rift between his family and Maitimo's because they used to be friends. I tend to think that the truth was somewhere along the lines of "well my boyfriend got captured by Satan, I gotta go save him now", but at the same time it doesn't make sense.
Because nobody thought it could be done. I'm fairly certain the house of Fëanáro and its followers had given Maitimo up for dead by the time Finno went off on his damn fool idealistic crusade. Why would somebody do what he did? Go to Angamando, unarmed, unprepared, when realistically you couldn't expect to find anyone?
I think he went there to die. Either to offer himself up as a replacement for Maitimo (they're both eldest sons of the heirs of Finwë, and Finno at least has more value politically since Fëanáro's not exactly there to do anything about his son's imprisonment) or to wait to be killed. I'm fairly certain that arriving in Beleriand, finding out your uncle (and youngest cousin) burned to death, finding out that your friend/cousin/lover (take your pick) was captured, and being forbidden by both self-styled High Kings of the Ñoldor from going after said prisoner would drive you to desperation. Especially since both sides of the family despise one another, there's been no decisive military victories that you've seen, you've come off the worst road trip ever, and there just seems to be no hope at all. A suicide mission doesn't seem so unlikely. After all, if he's dead, he'll get to see Maitimo again, won't he?
I've always felt that Finno, while valiant certainly, is impulsive. Russandol might be the brash, emotional, reckless one, but he's older and learned to temper that recklessness. Finno? Not so much. I picture him grabbing his harp and storming out because fuck you Artanis, Maitimo can be found and freed and then only really realizing what he's doing once he's too far away to return without looking like a disgrace. In fact, I'm willing to bet he didn't expect to actually find his cousin, at least not like that. And it's finding Maitimo that spurs him to action and restores his hope.
(Basically all this spurred from a mental image of a screaming/sobbing Findekáno pounding on the doors of Angamando and pleading with Melkor to take him instead)