inbox meme . ❥ ft. ‘ELECTRA HEART’ STARTERS .
@prtgnst asked —— “ i don’t care if you think i’m dumb. “
there’s an unsettling amount of sadness within his voice , as if he’s waiting for an agreeable answer to his distressed confession. it’s strange , really , how often she hears such upsetting and depressive tone to come from him ; defeated in the reality of their situation. and , yes , her heart aches , an uncontrollable squeeze of helplessness in her own chest , unable to offer any words of support or actions that echo the same manner for him.
there’s sympathy in her expression , lost among the confusion that sonia feels due to their circumstances. she wishes she could remember , had they always been like this ? relying on hajime in times of need , to make him atlas , to crush him underneath unnecessary expectation. perhaps , perhaps that’s why a bone - deep anguish , is it misery ? is it self isolating despair ? , rises up in her. it’s a suffocating blanket at this point , as it’s something they both know all too well.
‘ ‘ oh . . . hajime . . . ’ ’ what can she say ? to speak in such hush tones , as if to not disturb the silence that envelops the room , it adds on to the uncertainty that she feels. tangible , at the very least , real among her usual peppy tones. how did they all end up like this ? ‘ ‘ i do believe you are getting far too down about yourself , you know ? absolutely none of us thinks such ill will of you. we definitely wouldn’t rely on you so much as a leader if we did ! ’ ’ though . . . it’s a role , a leadership he wishes not to be , at least this she knows.