1st, my workplace (actually not a ‘real’ workplace but an internship space) are pretty much not okay..for me, i think? The surroundings are fine but the isolation and the boredom and the mind that is inside the four corners of the office, if i have to descirbe the color..its violet that has a bit of yellow. Im not comfortable, it’s still not properly arranged just like their thoughts and words, I am also unmotivated to go inside, like if I were to choose I would like to back out.. but that is impossible. Though I would really appreciate if they appreciate my time, my efforts, my vibes, my silence, my solemnity, my point of views, my decisions and my being. Because it feels like I am trying to fit in. Also the chosen mate for me, is idunno what to describe.. at first I admit it was all fine, and then there was a moment that it has to go beyond the boundaries.. hello we just met and we are not tha close, periodt. Don’t talk trash about me, talk back behind me, saying things behind me, hello again. I didn’t remember when did I became bad to you, and now you’re acting like a victim here and there.. what is it really your plaaan,? Huh. Because i don’t know how to cope up with yourself and to your allies. That’s the main point here. 2nd problem. My school itself, lately the owner of the university I’ve been going decided to put up some good stuff, by putting all paramedical courses and medicine students into one place, which is the new building of the university.. Here’s the thing, my crushes are all around the corner, Nursing, Radtech and PT. So y is this a problem? I’m becoming more and more conscious as the day become, Im like poker face when we cross fates, the nursing guy, which I noticed since 2015 in our old school is thereeee and I really would want to stick to the rumor that he’s gay, and Im very fine with it since I adore and love gays <3 He is so attractive even when he’s queuing in the cafeteria, I really would notice him. Hehe. Then here’s the PT guy, ughh I really have a thing about bois with glasses and the way their aura is dashing it’s getting my attention.. can u stopp..he’s not single okai thats y it’s a problem, I can’t keep my eyes off him when I meet him in the hallway or in the Cafeteria or in the stairss oh noo this is malala na bayy. Hays why guys are so attractive, labi na pag naka glasses! Which leads us to my third, save the best for the last. This one thinks no one has crush on him, he said it in twitter to which I strongly disagree, every girl or gay that he’ll look or talk or just stand doing nothing makes me or us feel haaaaaay haha kilig? He has that charm that anyone can accept and the presence that unable to resist. He’s also wearing eyeglasses, we had a small talk like he can talk to anyone but ge duol jud sya nako ug ako dayn kay ge kilig,. Buing.. He didn’t call me ‘ate’ which he should have,, ahhaha and last sem in our class,he was sitting behind me and it makes me reallly happy and conscious at the same time, But I decided during semi finals to sit at the very back of the room (since i got an alas card to sit in the 1st row because of my poorest eyesight, nag duol na nuon mig bangko imbis alphabetically arrange ang seats) so i sat in the back, and the entire sesions i was just looking at him,admiring him, and hahaha there was a time when he is so happy because he answers the questions of our teacher.. he wAs so cute,until now ofc. He is alsoo so cool,even when he’s alone or with friends. Alone in the cafet where I didn’t realise he wAs sitting on our front table!! He was wearing an earphone prolly listening music since he’s in the band. He so cool,i wanna hug him and cuddle him like a pup. Lol. And I don’t wannabe like assuming but every time i want to see him,he really pops out and make my heat and soul happy. Bery spontaneous. And when I look at him, no not look at him but glance at him, he will glance to me as well oooohh pilingera na dis ambot ani bay kay ga kiligon jud ko doh piling na kung pilingg.. Uhm, mao ra to sya hihihi sunod napud
