#psychially

[liquidlightandrunningtrees]

Sometimes I feel like I am living on a different star from the one I am used to calling home. It has not been a steady progression. I had to examine, in my dreams as well as in my immune-function tests, the devastating effects of overextension. Overextending myself is not stretching myself. I had to accept how difficult it is to monitor the difference. Necessary for the me as cutting down on sugar. Crucial. Physically. Psychically. Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation. And that is an act of political warfare.

Audre Lorde, A Burst of Light: and Other Essays

[hakkanai]

i dont know how i'm hanging on to such a thin strand of thread. i swear it's going to tear soon and then i'll fall into an abyss that i will never get out of.