#psychicjournal

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

me n slimbo-chan were walkin the dogs by the river, not rly sayin much just enjoying the serenity. this thought came into my head that was like, "i think slimbo-chan wants DQ." then 10 seconds later out of nowhere slimbo-chan says "i wana stop by DQ on the way home" 😱

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

If you would've asked me three years ago if I could see myself preparing to summon one of the Kings of Hell, I definitely would've said no.

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

ugh, I've been so concerned about earthly matters that I've strayed from the path

I'm getting deeper, things are getting weird. I've noticed over the past couple of months that my connection to the spirit plane has been more noticeable. I felt the house spirit standing really close behind me in the kitchen last night. like bro im tryna cook :/

For the first time in my life, someone has given me valid reason to cure them multiple times.

I can't hear anything. I'm in the middle of a depressive episode.

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

Another reason for a switch in direction is the fact that I think someone has cast a curse/hex on me. I definitely feel negative energy from some direction, not sure who though.

Last night for instance, I had a sleep paralysis fit. I remember lying on my back, which I never do for this exact reason.

I heard my door click open, so I opened my eyes. I was paralyzed, but I saw a huge black shadow looming in the doorway. At this point in my life, I’ve dealt with paralysis entities multiple times, so I wasn’t afraid. I looked at it, and quite literally said:

“Um excuse me, what are you doing barging in my room uninvited?”

Which to be fair, probably startled the entity that I would be bold enough to say something like that. I closed my eyes and came out of the paralysis. I opened my eyes, the door was shut and it was gone, so I went to sleep.

I’m pretty sure this is the same entity that has been looming outside my room at night, but I couldn’t enter as I cleansed the room with sage the night before. It didn’t speak, it didn’t enter, just lingered as I got angry with it for disturbing me.

Pretty funny, but I’ll be casting a protection spell tonight to see if it helps. I’ll also hang one of my crosses above the door. It doesn’t scare me, but it’s intrusion on my space makes me annoyed and nervous.

Like bro?? Do u have any manners lol

N-E-waiz lmao

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

Really hoping to work with Persephone as a deity in the near future. As soon as I get the extra cash, I really want to get a nice altar for her.

Added photos to elaborate.

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

On a side note: seriously considering investing my time into practicing Wicca. I have a strong connection with the higher realms, something I’ve tried to test multiple time to be true. True to me, not to you.

So I guess in a way, this is my online book of shadows. I never realized that I’ve been keeping a book of shadows of sorts for almost two years now. Something keeps pulling me to Wicca. The pull is as strong now as the pull of being called back to sea.

I’m not sure where this timeline is evolving to, but it is getting pretty interesting.

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

“It doesn’t matter who you would be, it’s about who should be.”

In response to my conscience thought stream:

“Who would I be if it had never happened? Would I be different? Would I be better?”

The silence is chatty tonight.

[sh-a-tt-er-e-d-psyche]

Heard someone say “The Magician” through the static.

It fits as I am not using my skills to their fullest potential. Just a quick reminder from my loving angels.