#puddle babble

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I urgently needed that one meme, but couldn't find it so I made a new one. Might as well post here

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I'm starting a collection of sponsored posts that come across my dash that I call "who paid for this?"

First category, AI art

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WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME THAT TOM HARDY PLAYED HEATHCLIFF IN 2009 ADAPTATION AND THAT THEY MADE HIM WEAR A TERRIBLE WIG

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I feel like if I go to a therapist and show them the list of fictional men I romanced in video games they'd immediately diagnose me with something devastating.

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Lockwood in the middle of the book: oh, I've already listened to the rest of story, but I suppose I'll retell it to you as well. I'll also tell it in the same way Ms Dean was telling it, since it's already perfect in her style.

WHY ARE YOU HERE AT ALL THEN LOCKWOOD

STEP ASIDE AND LET ME HEAR IT FROM NELLY SINCE SHE IS ALREADY THE PERFECT NARRATOR AND YOUR PRESENCE IMPROVES N O T H I N G

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This is such bullshit. They are banning all transgender care in my country, and prohibiting changing legal sex in documents.

I'm trying to look realistically on my prospects. I don't have enough money to go do an operation and still being able to pay for meds. Besides, there is not enough time. Hormones are my top priority. I personally don't care for my legal name too much, but there is a chance that actually changing it would create a path for me get the care I need because legally i would be considered cis.

But that quite literally paints a giant target on my back, because I don't pass, and also that can make me a mark for army recruitment, which is definitely not the thing I want.

I suppose my best option now is getting stealth hrt somehow and investing in binders. It's a more cowardly path, bit I am, as it happens, a coward, and want to avoid all the suffering I can.

Besides, surgeries can be done in other countries, so I'm going to keep that in mind and not be too upset.

Void, take this accursed regime and drown it in its own shit. I beg all of the gods there are, kill them all.

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God damn it, I'm having a small scale anxiety wave where I imagine all the awful things happening to my cat because I got paranoid that he is not feeling too well without much actual evidence of that.

Ugh, maybe I should get him checked by a vet this week anyway, since he is getting on his years... Just to make sure...

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Current medical status: annoyed at coworker who is asking me the same question she already asked 3 months ago, and we had a full discussion about.