#punchy posting

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im glad everyone is mad @ the new body types. Get yer k-pop eastern beauty standards BULLSHIT

OUT OF HERE

bruh................on a VERY RELATED NOTE, I will not watch kpop demon hunters. East Asian beauty standards are toxic as fuck. And kpop as an industry is awful.

I know in my soul that if it came out when I was a teen I would have been OBSESSED. But I also know how the hyper-thincentric 2000's had absolutely destroyed me to the point of years long bouts of depersonalization.

The body dysmorphia about not being 95lbs and perfectly polished to an intentionally cultivated "product" (you know how the pop industry literally works because these young performers are PRODUCTS to be sold not PEOPLE) is just.... something that hits deep.

I know it's not exactly fair to condemn one piece of art because of the subject matter/the evils of the real world industry.

But isn't that the same reasoning against the propaganda glorifying cops in serial dramas?

If I can condemn copaganda for the industry it's based on, I think it should translate to any industry that victimizes and profits from the vulnerable. So I'm at peace with it.

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Happy birthday to Mammon Obey Me! 💖✨️🌈💸🪙💲💰💖✨️

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Fat women are CUTE, hot even! I love my irregular fucking lumps and I refuse to not feel lovely cuz some insta-jerk thinks I'm ugly.

Tbh, body neutrality has healed me more than positivity. Lmaooooo you think I'm gonna assign moral or personal value to *checks notes* the genetic dance your parents spunk sequenced @ conception?

no dog, nothing has healed me like examining my personal biases and reactions to people's appearance. If my eye catches on a person's fat arms, or double chin, acne, teeth, or really anything and my reaction is discomfort I know I have more work to do. If those features were on me (and many are!) it doesn't make me less valuable, it's not a moral failing, and I deserve kindness and the decency of non-judgment.

It. Doesn't. Matter. If. I'm. Ugly. I'm. A. Person.

Hahaha such a crazy thing to be in the otome space simultaneously. It's a space built on the foundation of famously restrictive eastern beauty standards. Even Obey Me has the front of perfect, thin, young, athletic builds. I exist here with my own versions of these people. At least I can draw Luci n company looking anywhere from 20-70+ in my own home.

An old family I can visit with enough knots, lines, and bumps to see some centuries of wear and tear. We're alike.

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Maaaaaaaan. I really just want to polish and post a few sections of my Obey Me fic, but like.... putting yourself out there is tough. But there's......... so much to pull from..... I've never written this much, and I'd really like to turn this blog into my fanon Obey Me work repository.

It's a hole filled draft of one narrative, with a named afab!MC. Mammon-centric, I've got supplementary fanart to boot (like my icon!!! she's my muse!!!). I guess I don't feel like it's ever "finished" enough to post. But I coooooooooooooooould~ And maybe I should and just enjoy myself for once.