Push Positivity
I’m out here in the kitchen, up late again, reflecting on the past year and thinking, “pushing into positivity has been the only thing that has really kept me going.” Everything I knew to be my life, my environment, my work, my relationship, crumbled around me in what seemed like the blink of an eye and I swear if I hadn’t strengthened this muscle of being relentlessly positive, it would have eaten me for lunch. Thats not to say there haven’t been extremely trying days where everything that I am seems to be pain and I am locked into a somatic/emotional pattern that has an ungodly grip on me. The positivity in those days came from learning how to let them pass with the least amount of internal resistance and the fullest amount of work accomplished. I welcomed the pain as a companion on the job on those days and it was uncomfortable but ultimately possible to get just as much accomplished. The great benefit of doing the work on difficult days is that even if the emotional energy is drained, the sense of triumph missing, the world still falling apart, I had something to turn over in my hands and its substance was just as compelling as any other day I did the work. There is an inherent positivity in doing the work that lives in the seat of the body and its ultimate satisfaction with action. And there is powerful positivity in utility and the idea that all experiences are material for building something powerful. Dark days are powerful material. Anyways, this is the first post in a long line of thoughts and musings on the nature of humans and existence and the perspectives that strengthen us. I hope you enjoy the journey as much as I will. Be well friends.
