once again thinking about trans yqy + sqq……
trans man yue qingyuan who has the absolute worst binding habits but refuses to consider surgery because even the thought of any kind of permanent body modifications reminds him of being forcibly broken into pieces + put back together again by his shizun in the ling xi caves.
trans shen qingqiu who doesn’t know the right words to describe her gender but remembers the swirl of emotions she felt back at the qiu manor when qiu haitang dressed her up in her clothing and made her look like a girl for fun. the envy she would feel when she watched qiu haitang show off her robes, of not knowing if she wanted her or wanted to be her. the confusion and frustration he felt on days where he looked at yue qingyuan, with all his prestige and power and gentle masculinity, and couldn’t understand if he wanted him or wanted to be him, too.
