Hi, I'm autistic and Teen Wolf is my special interest. I'm also getting married in less than a month. So, I wrote Lydia's vows to Stiles. I hope you enjoy.
I was 13 when I wrote out my five year plan for after high school. It was three simple things: “graduate MIT, write a new mathematical theorem, win the Field’s Medal.'' I mean, if anyone was going to do all of that before age 23, it was me. But I started dating Jackson and things..changed. This was still my five year plan but I was too scared and ashamed to tell anyone. I couldn’t risk being rejected from the people I thought would be the only ones to ever accept me. Little did I know, I would find my forever and family through the two nerdy kids on the lacrosse team.
But you. You always saw me. Everything I figured I had to be ashamed of, you made me feel like I deserved to be proud of. I’ll never forget you calling me out on it at the dance where I was, at the time, forced to attend with you. At the time all I could think was how awful it was for my social status to be out with you that night, but it didn’t take very long for that to change.
After Peter bit me, I was told that Jackson saved my life. It wasn’t until he came back to Beacon Hills when we were fighting Gerard, again, that I found out the truth. You were ready to sacrifice yourself for the very real possibility I was either going to die or become a werewolf. As far as anyone knew, those were my only options after being bit by an alpha. I guess becoming a banshee wasn’t in my five year plan either, but hey neither was falling completely in love with the kind of weird nerdy kid who obsessed over me for nine years. Yet somehow, here we are today. And I wouldn’t change it for anything.
Becoming your friend was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. Everything I thought I had to be ashamed of, everything I was told I had to be ashamed of, you made me feel proud of. And I really thought I could just be your friend, even after I kissed you. But saying I was wrong feels like an understatement. I look back now and that was the moment I started falling in love with you. It was like the sun came out.
Truthfully, I’m not sure if I ever thought I would get married. It didn’t necessarily fit into what I really saw in my future. And when my parents got divorced, any possible thought of marriage completely fled my thoughts. I couldn’t stand the risk of marrying someone like my dad, or becoming someone like my mom. Yet when you asked me to marry you, saying yes was the quickest and easiest decision I have ever made. You’ve made me feel so loved and so safe for so long. Even when I didn’t notice you, you were still protecting me. You were still loving me. I love you so, so much Stiles, and I cannot believe I’m standing up here today marrying you. You’re my home.
