when you tell the person you’ve been seeing about something that happened the day before, and how you were like overcome with emotion and crying on your way home.
and then they get quiet, and say, “sorry you had a rough day yesterday. why didn’t you tell me?”
and you’re like “well, i didn’t tell you because i know you don’t like it when other people have feelings.” (because, they are one of those Queers that is the only one that is allowed to have feelings.)
and they’re like “it’s not that i don’t like it when other people have feelings. it’s that i don’t know what to do with other people when they have feelings because i’m so bad at dealing with my feelings. so i’m just like ‘oh, you’re having feelings.’”
but like, even though they’re bad at expressing their feelings, at least they’re allowed to do it, right?
like, for them, it gets to be an accomplishment when they express their feelings.
i just get to pretend everything is okay all the time and tell them that they’re great and validate them and give them all of the emotional support, and pretend that i never need it.
so like, that’s frustrating sometimes even though i know it shouldn’t.