Maggot Nursery

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Woaah I'm gonna start posting here again this is crazy My accounts I was using for the last few years were @maggotnursery and @helluvabigbug This one devolved into a personal sad adult blog but idk it smells like home or something

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pride babies

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Torch city for my friend's celebration of life 🥹

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Fuck Tumblr mobile man these were supposed to be on my first post but w/e Days like this make me appreciate Milwaukee tbh.

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Just reminded of some shit but I'm genuinely attracted(sexually, romantic, platonic/whatever it's an attraction) to some artists based on their art styles and I think it's the most heart breaking thing when you get the opportunity to hang out with some artists who's art made you FEEL THINGS for a long time and then find out that they really are chronically online and overly negative about life........ ): Bummed out, embarrassed, social energy gone for like weeks after this.

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re drew a daki design 🙏

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Asmodeus is so baby doll 🥰

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can you put that thing on a leash?

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ok

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Polyamory is crazy because outside of organizing or rad queer spaces its so misrepresented and hated on.

Ive been practicing since I was 17 (in 2008 btw) and I can guarantee with all the ended relationships id had (both were non-monogamous and monogamous) that the mistakes and endings are more alike than people think, but the access to information you get about yourself about the kinds of things you want, how it changes over time, and what you NEED in other people are so much more apparent when you form a bunch of different kinds of intimate relationships that intersect and start and end and fizzle out and turn evolve into other things......

Idk I dont regret ANY relationship ive had. Platonic, sexual, romantic or otherwise. I do regret not ENDING some sooner but thats only with hindsight.

I wouldnt know myself and what I want and how to compartmentalize emotions vs perspective vs intent if it werent for always loving and trying to understand so many people.

Djdhsid idk I should make a zine or something bc jesus fucking christ.

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me in 2018 “elder scrolls 6 isn’t gonna come put before im 30 :”(“

ILL BE 35 BEFORE IT COMES OUT CMMOOOONNNNNN

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lol

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Hag torches to morn the homies. 🙏

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personal bullshit

I just want to dump my feelings somewhere where i dont gotta worry about bothering people

tw: death of a friend and suicide

a good friend of mine killed themselves two days ago.

They fought so fucking hard, but even with the support of our lil community it wasnt enough. You could feel they were pushing through it for the sake of us.

Im glad theyre not hurting anymore. But I just cant stop ruminating on what we could have done differently, like it would have changed anything. Its like obsessively playing over and over in my head and i cant get it to stop. I accept that they were done fighting. When you've been in and out on inpatient for so long, fighting in a failing system its like, you gotta take matters into your own hand.

i just want my brain to turn off.

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Him...........

ALSO LIFE BITCH:

its punk christmas up in mlps rn but im staying back bc i let my connections to pals up there expire due to life being insane, backing out of organizing, and too much drawing fanart

and if fokes know mlps its that people are fucking BUSY and unless you're busy WITH them they wont remember or make space for you. so all my messages to kick it have gone unanswered and its AALLL MY FAAULT 😩

And im super not into going to shit alone anymore because guess what?? IT AINT FUN I HATE IT THE END

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helluva dump

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If i had a nickel for every time a fellow neurodivergent friend who insisted i be "blunt" and "straight forward" with them told me shit they didnt mean, projected thoughts, feelings, and intentions onto me that werent there and didnt believe any straight forward things i told them... id have like $2. :")